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god sometimes i wish my life had a fast forward button
i hate when i get in these like little pockets of sadness
it sucks
its like nothing i do is ever truly good enough...never
i try so hard all the time to please people... and never really pleasing myself
i never think about myself
i think about everyone else before me
my life is centered around everyone else
work, school, friendships i mean everything is
and when i give so much...its hard to not get anything in return
all my friends have boyfriends so its not like i can talk to any of them about this
im the only single person...it feels like at least
i just feel like i cant be myself around anyone..but myself
and i dont think i have enough time for one anyways..or at least thats what i tell myself
i feel so unloved its ridiculous...im pretty sure if i died tomorrow no one would remember me...i think i could drift away and no one would miss me....and thats the saddest realization ive ever had.
its sad that ive been distanced away so much from my friends..because theyre all i have..i understand that little connection they have with someone that their with..it just sucks because im sitting here by myself..and that sucks i cant wait until i can move on..and genuinely never talk to my sister again because shes a bitch and i am really starting to dislike her..shes so god damn full of herself she thinks shes got so many friends but shes got the foulest attitude of anyone i know...i feel bad my mom has to drive around with her because id probably shove her ass out of my moving car because i cant stand her...she feels like everyone owes her something and i can not live with someone as selfish and rude as her.
i hate when i get in these like little pockets of sadness
it sucks
its like nothing i do is ever truly good enough...never
i try so hard all the time to please people... and never really pleasing myself
i never think about myself
i think about everyone else before me
my life is centered around everyone else
work, school, friendships i mean everything is
and when i give so much...its hard to not get anything in return
all my friends have boyfriends so its not like i can talk to any of them about this
im the only single person...it feels like at least
i just feel like i cant be myself around anyone..but myself
and i dont think i have enough time for one anyways..or at least thats what i tell myself
i feel so unloved its ridiculous...im pretty sure if i died tomorrow no one would remember me...i think i could drift away and no one would miss me....and thats the saddest realization ive ever had.
its sad that ive been distanced away so much from my friends..because theyre all i have..i understand that little connection they have with someone that their with..it just sucks because im sitting here by myself..and that sucks i cant wait until i can move on..and genuinely never talk to my sister again because shes a bitch and i am really starting to dislike her..shes so god damn full of herself she thinks shes got so many friends but shes got the foulest attitude of anyone i know...i feel bad my mom has to drive around with her because id probably shove her ass out of my moving car because i cant stand her...she feels like everyone owes her something and i can not live with someone as selfish and rude as her.