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Title: Little Lolita
Author: Sweettart1823
Claim: Mia Dearden
Characters/Pairing: Mia/Ollie
Rating: R
Prompt: Guilt
Summary: She can't stand what happened and sees only one option
Disclaimer: I don’t own them D:
Author's Notes/Warnings: Alright so there aren't any real spoilers for Blackest Night: Green Arrow but what Ollie said to Mia just kind of disturbed me so I wrote this? I might continue it as a sort of AU Series. I don't know. We'll see.
Mia stared at the ceiling for a moment listening to Ollie's breath steadying as he fell asleep. She glanced over at the man next to her before she slid out of bed and headed to the shower. And on the way it hit her, and contenued to hit her what had just happened. What she had just done. First she felt guilty, sex, even with a condom... it was dangerous. What if Ollie still contracted HIV? It'd be all her fault. It hit her in waves, horrible big waves that made her want to disappear. She turned the shower on and got in, hoping that maybe the scalding hot water would wash the disgusting sick feeling she felt off of her body.
God, what did she just do? She started to try to scrub herself off as her mind reeled. She had thought she had been stupid to think she saw Ollie watching her when she changed into her Speedy costume. Because that wasn't possible, he didn't think of her like that. And she found it funny when he started flirting with her, because that was just what Ollie did... But it went from funny and innocent to the exact opposite very fast. And Mia was confused and didn't know what to do. He started looking at her like she was more then his ward. More then his sidekick. More then the teenage girl that lived with him. He started looking at her like she was beautiful, like she was special. And when he touched her... it was nice. And... and... Mia bit down hard on her bottom lip and started to cry.
It happened again. She couldn't believe that. Another person she thought was supposed to care about her, and protect her, and love her... didn't. She couldn't believe she let it happen again. What was wrong with her. Was she really that hard to love? Was she really that worthless? Mia dropped down to her knees and doubled over as she started crying harder. First her dad, then Richard, and now... Ollie. She was starting to think that all of this was her fault. If it happened over and over again it had to be something she was doing, right? What was wrong with her? Why did this keep happening?
But this time... it was different. It was worse. She'd lived with Ollie for a few years and... he promised nothing wouldn't happen to her like that again. But it did. And... Dinah and... Mia shoved her fist into her mouth to stop herself from crying out anymore loudly then she already had.
And she stayed curled up in the shower until the water had turned ice cold and she heard Oliver moving around in the next room. Mia took a couple of gasping breaths before she got out of the shower wrapped a towel around herself and walked out of the bathroom. She heard Ollie say something to her but it didn't register with her whatever it was. She just walked out of his room and to hers closing the door behind her and sitting on her bed looking around. She stayed still for a moment before she looked into her mirror and gave herself a disgusted look. What had she done? Why? She... didn't understand. Why? She let out a small groan and got up shoving some of her things into a bag then put on some clothes.
Because she knew she couldn't stay here. Not anymore. What if it happened again. How was she supposed to look at Oliver? Dinah? Connor? She had to leave. So she threw the bag over her shoulder and picked up her duffel bag with her Speedy stuff in it and headed out of her room. She was afraid that leaving would cause problems, but not more afraid then what would happen if she actually stayed. Besides... living here... she wasn't good enough to.
So she headed out of the house got on her bike and left without a word, a note, or any other sign. It would be easier for everyone this way...
Author: Sweettart1823
Claim: Mia Dearden
Characters/Pairing: Mia/Ollie
Rating: R
Prompt: Guilt
Summary: She can't stand what happened and sees only one option
Disclaimer: I don’t own them D:
Author's Notes/Warnings: Alright so there aren't any real spoilers for Blackest Night: Green Arrow but what Ollie said to Mia just kind of disturbed me so I wrote this? I might continue it as a sort of AU Series. I don't know. We'll see.
Mia stared at the ceiling for a moment listening to Ollie's breath steadying as he fell asleep. She glanced over at the man next to her before she slid out of bed and headed to the shower. And on the way it hit her, and contenued to hit her what had just happened. What she had just done. First she felt guilty, sex, even with a condom... it was dangerous. What if Ollie still contracted HIV? It'd be all her fault. It hit her in waves, horrible big waves that made her want to disappear. She turned the shower on and got in, hoping that maybe the scalding hot water would wash the disgusting sick feeling she felt off of her body.
God, what did she just do? She started to try to scrub herself off as her mind reeled. She had thought she had been stupid to think she saw Ollie watching her when she changed into her Speedy costume. Because that wasn't possible, he didn't think of her like that. And she found it funny when he started flirting with her, because that was just what Ollie did... But it went from funny and innocent to the exact opposite very fast. And Mia was confused and didn't know what to do. He started looking at her like she was more then his ward. More then his sidekick. More then the teenage girl that lived with him. He started looking at her like she was beautiful, like she was special. And when he touched her... it was nice. And... and... Mia bit down hard on her bottom lip and started to cry.
It happened again. She couldn't believe that. Another person she thought was supposed to care about her, and protect her, and love her... didn't. She couldn't believe she let it happen again. What was wrong with her. Was she really that hard to love? Was she really that worthless? Mia dropped down to her knees and doubled over as she started crying harder. First her dad, then Richard, and now... Ollie. She was starting to think that all of this was her fault. If it happened over and over again it had to be something she was doing, right? What was wrong with her? Why did this keep happening?
But this time... it was different. It was worse. She'd lived with Ollie for a few years and... he promised nothing wouldn't happen to her like that again. But it did. And... Dinah and... Mia shoved her fist into her mouth to stop herself from crying out anymore loudly then she already had.
And she stayed curled up in the shower until the water had turned ice cold and she heard Oliver moving around in the next room. Mia took a couple of gasping breaths before she got out of the shower wrapped a towel around herself and walked out of the bathroom. She heard Ollie say something to her but it didn't register with her whatever it was. She just walked out of his room and to hers closing the door behind her and sitting on her bed looking around. She stayed still for a moment before she looked into her mirror and gave herself a disgusted look. What had she done? Why? She... didn't understand. Why? She let out a small groan and got up shoving some of her things into a bag then put on some clothes.
Because she knew she couldn't stay here. Not anymore. What if it happened again. How was she supposed to look at Oliver? Dinah? Connor? She had to leave. So she threw the bag over her shoulder and picked up her duffel bag with her Speedy stuff in it and headed out of her room. She was afraid that leaving would cause problems, but not more afraid then what would happen if she actually stayed. Besides... living here... she wasn't good enough to.
So she headed out of the house got on her bike and left without a word, a note, or any other sign. It would be easier for everyone this way...