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it feels so strange beginning new entries after such an extensive hiatus...
but i didn't read the last two comments until tonight at this late hour so
the people speak
i write.
and so i write...
there is no doubt that this month is personally the most emotionally arduous time- -in a very long time.
it is exceedingly difficult to describe the frustration i feel concerning the complete and utter lack of power i have over the forced separation between myself and my best friend+boy friend of well over a year. the classic case. boy leaves for college/girl is a mess/boy is a mess/one big puddle of emotional mess that never quite seems to get cleaned up. no, i am not helpless. afraid? yes, very much so.
[i am a senior, if you haven't noticed.] [where did time go?]
i looked at myself in the mirror today, right before i went to the movies. not a passing superficial glance to put on makeup or to fix my hair; a good look- straight through the black holes in my eyes and into my soul.
and my soul: i found that i am generally happy with it.
then i realized i needed some mascara
junior year is long gone
and i have changed for the better.
cheers, everyone: here's to uncharted waters.
but i didn't read the last two comments until tonight at this late hour so
the people speak
i write.
and so i write...
there is no doubt that this month is personally the most emotionally arduous time- -in a very long time.
it is exceedingly difficult to describe the frustration i feel concerning the complete and utter lack of power i have over the forced separation between myself and my best friend+boy friend of well over a year. the classic case. boy leaves for college/girl is a mess/boy is a mess/one big puddle of emotional mess that never quite seems to get cleaned up. no, i am not helpless. afraid? yes, very much so.
[i am a senior, if you haven't noticed.] [where did time go?]
i looked at myself in the mirror today, right before i went to the movies. not a passing superficial glance to put on makeup or to fix my hair; a good look- straight through the black holes in my eyes and into my soul.
and my soul: i found that i am generally happy with it.
then i realized i needed some mascara
junior year is long gone
and i have changed for the better.
cheers, everyone: here's to uncharted waters.