not originally written today
Hey stranger,
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by life, like everything hits me all at once - life, religion, love, hate - everything. I want to know everything, everything about everything. Celestial or not I'm here and I want to know why. I guess you could call this a meaning to life writing and all my life will ever be. I feel overwhelmed but also so limited. Once I've done all I could do then what? Enjoy life? I don't know if I can I'm starting to not make sense and too many thoughts are going through my small mind. I don't want to be a function of society. I don't want to feel inferior, which is probably why I don't believe in religion. I don't feel special. I feel like part of a machine of society. I want to be important in life, but at the same time I feel like it's futile. After this life, then what? Ugh I've put myself in a mood. So what? Contribute to the wheel of life or rebel and stop it from turning? I want to see what "God" would do if his plan didn't work. I've been told I don't value life, and I'm starting to believe them. I view life as the survival of the fittest. People were meant to live and die. We all have to die why is it so scary? I'm going to die and hey, it might even be tomorrow does that mean I don't value life? Why can't we make the process shorter? I need to find out everything and I've already wasted 17 years.
Long you live and high you fly smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be
I observe but I haven't found a solution yet, I guess that’s my next step.
Colleen
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by life, like everything hits me all at once - life, religion, love, hate - everything. I want to know everything, everything about everything. Celestial or not I'm here and I want to know why. I guess you could call this a meaning to life writing and all my life will ever be. I feel overwhelmed but also so limited. Once I've done all I could do then what? Enjoy life? I don't know if I can I'm starting to not make sense and too many thoughts are going through my small mind. I don't want to be a function of society. I don't want to feel inferior, which is probably why I don't believe in religion. I don't feel special. I feel like part of a machine of society. I want to be important in life, but at the same time I feel like it's futile. After this life, then what? Ugh I've put myself in a mood. So what? Contribute to the wheel of life or rebel and stop it from turning? I want to see what "God" would do if his plan didn't work. I've been told I don't value life, and I'm starting to believe them. I view life as the survival of the fittest. People were meant to live and die. We all have to die why is it so scary? I'm going to die and hey, it might even be tomorrow does that mean I don't value life? Why can't we make the process shorter? I need to find out everything and I've already wasted 17 years.
Long you live and high you fly smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be
I observe but I haven't found a solution yet, I guess that’s my next step.
Colleen