Okay guys
I'm back online for about two weeks. I'm in Oklahoma with my in laws, so I have internet until I go back to Jacksonville. I REALLY DON'T WANNA GO BACKKKK!!!!!
My brother in law passed away on December 18th... people have said that he lost his battle with cancer, but those who really knew him know that he did not lose. Defeat was never an option. He died peacefully and in his sleep, surrounded by his family members and those who loved him. Thankfully, we made it just in time to spend one day with him, and then he fell asleep the night of the 16th, and didn't wake up again, although I know he knew we were there and he heard us all around him.
A special story I have to share though, is how he met his unborn nephew. On December 17th, he wasn't really awake, but he was still conscious. I think it was like when you're in that place right between sleeping and awake, and you know what's going on around you but you can't really respond... I think that was the place he was in that day. Nate and I were in the bedroom with him at his bedside and Nate got an idea. He took Kristopher's hand and put it on my baby bump. Baby Kristopher Aden punched his hand and then pushed his little fist out as far as he could against his uncle's hand. Kristopher smiled in his sleep and when Nate put his hand down, you could see his individual knuckles all poking out from underneath my tummy. I have never seen or felt anything so beautiful. It was truly a very touching moment, and as soon as I felt him move underneath Kris's hand, the tears started flowing. It was absolutely beautiful. I feel like Kris got to meet his namesake, even though he never got to see him or hold him in his arms.
As for the pregnancy, I AM SO TIRED OF BEING PREGNANT. I feel really guilty about it, but I find myself at times begging the baby to come so I can be done with the waiting. I know it's best for him to stay in there as long as possible, but I really really just want to hold him in my arms. I can't wait to meet my son.
Nate is in California on a training operation, and he'll be there until next month. I don't want him to miss the baby's birth, but I don't think we have a choice. :( I'm getting really nervous now that the deployment is getting closer. I know I'm getting clingy, but I can't help it... I don't want to miss a moment with him. This deployment will be so hard. Before, I was used to sleeping by myself, and I was still living at home and I wasn't around him all the time. This time, I don't know how I'm going to get through it. Yeah, I'll have the baby, but I still worry that I'll have too much free time on my hands. (Yeah right!)
Anyway, there's my real update that I've been owing you guys for like, ever. I'll hopefully have more updates for you guys before I leave, complete with pictures and a birth story!!! I can't wait.
My brother in law passed away on December 18th... people have said that he lost his battle with cancer, but those who really knew him know that he did not lose. Defeat was never an option. He died peacefully and in his sleep, surrounded by his family members and those who loved him. Thankfully, we made it just in time to spend one day with him, and then he fell asleep the night of the 16th, and didn't wake up again, although I know he knew we were there and he heard us all around him.
A special story I have to share though, is how he met his unborn nephew. On December 17th, he wasn't really awake, but he was still conscious. I think it was like when you're in that place right between sleeping and awake, and you know what's going on around you but you can't really respond... I think that was the place he was in that day. Nate and I were in the bedroom with him at his bedside and Nate got an idea. He took Kristopher's hand and put it on my baby bump. Baby Kristopher Aden punched his hand and then pushed his little fist out as far as he could against his uncle's hand. Kristopher smiled in his sleep and when Nate put his hand down, you could see his individual knuckles all poking out from underneath my tummy. I have never seen or felt anything so beautiful. It was truly a very touching moment, and as soon as I felt him move underneath Kris's hand, the tears started flowing. It was absolutely beautiful. I feel like Kris got to meet his namesake, even though he never got to see him or hold him in his arms.
As for the pregnancy, I AM SO TIRED OF BEING PREGNANT. I feel really guilty about it, but I find myself at times begging the baby to come so I can be done with the waiting. I know it's best for him to stay in there as long as possible, but I really really just want to hold him in my arms. I can't wait to meet my son.
Nate is in California on a training operation, and he'll be there until next month. I don't want him to miss the baby's birth, but I don't think we have a choice. :( I'm getting really nervous now that the deployment is getting closer. I know I'm getting clingy, but I can't help it... I don't want to miss a moment with him. This deployment will be so hard. Before, I was used to sleeping by myself, and I was still living at home and I wasn't around him all the time. This time, I don't know how I'm going to get through it. Yeah, I'll have the baby, but I still worry that I'll have too much free time on my hands. (Yeah right!)
Anyway, there's my real update that I've been owing you guys for like, ever. I'll hopefully have more updates for you guys before I leave, complete with pictures and a birth story!!! I can't wait.