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So I've been doing a lot of thinking the past week or so about some things that have been happening and some things that have been said to me. I just want to write a journal entry, mostly to get things off my chest, but a part of me just wants to make it known what I've been thinking about.
Yes, I am a picky person. I like for things to be done a certain way a lot of the time. I like for things to be clean and I like to go by policy and procedure at work, so what? I am the type of person who is quick to get angry, I am definitely emotional, I don't hide how I am feeling, I am sarcastic and I like to joke around a lot and make jokes at other people's expense. Not to be mean and not to hurt their feelings just because it is fun when you can joke around with someone and they don't take everything to heart and can joke around right back. Yes, I think that someone falling is the funniest thing I've ever seen and I will also laugh at myself. Yes, I am the type of person who says whatever is on my mind regardless if anyone likes it or not. Why? Because I would rather say what I am thinking than live my life regretting the things I DID NOT SAY. I would rather tell you the truth and hurt your feelings and apologize for hurting them then regret never telling you the truth to begin with. I take up for my family and my friends and love with all my heart. I cry during sad movies. I care about what people think.. to an extent. I am not a people person. I don't like to make up conversation just for the sake of talking to avoid awkward silence. I don't trust a lot of people and I don't always seen the good in them. Yes, life has made me somewhat bitter and I don't always see the positive side of things...I am just realistic. Everything is not all sunny days and roses. Life is about seeing the light through the clouds and rain not about pretending that they don't exist. I purposefully create awkward situations because I think they are funny. I don't have a LOT of friends but I have a few friends that are VERY close to me and I am happy with that. I don't need to be surrounded by a ton of people to be happy. I love to read.. I love to reach and watch fantasy and sci fi, why? Because it is an escape from this life.. this life that is so full of hate, stress, work, school, drama etc. Reading is my escape. I am pro-choice. I believe that everyone has a choice in what they want to do with their lives, who am I to try and make those decisions for them or judge them for the choices they make? I have no problem with people who are gay, lesbian, bisexual, mixed race, or whatever! Why should I have a problem with that? If they are happy then that is ALL that matters! Who are we to tell a person who they can or cannot love?
My point in this ENTIRE entry is that I am who I want to be. I am who I am. I don't care if you don't like me for it.. I don't care if you disagree with what I like, dislike, say, or believe. I have a wonderful family and friends who support me in everything that I do. If you don't like it then you don't have to have anything to do with me. I don't need you. I just wanted to get all of this out because lately I have received a lot of criticism for being myself and quite frankly I'm tired of it! I've spent weeks feeling insecure about myself and WHO I AM and for what??
Who cares if I am 23 years old and I am still in college. Who cares if I have spent all of this time getting a degree that I don't even know if I want to do anymore. Who cares if all my friends are getting married and having children and I am not. Who cares?! Because I have decided.. I DON'T. I am going to do what makes me happy regardless. If anyone reading this has a problem with that then I don't need you in my life.
[So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should I be quiet because I'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended with the message I'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing]
Christina Aguilera- Can't Hold Us Down
Yes, I am a picky person. I like for things to be done a certain way a lot of the time. I like for things to be clean and I like to go by policy and procedure at work, so what? I am the type of person who is quick to get angry, I am definitely emotional, I don't hide how I am feeling, I am sarcastic and I like to joke around a lot and make jokes at other people's expense. Not to be mean and not to hurt their feelings just because it is fun when you can joke around with someone and they don't take everything to heart and can joke around right back. Yes, I think that someone falling is the funniest thing I've ever seen and I will also laugh at myself. Yes, I am the type of person who says whatever is on my mind regardless if anyone likes it or not. Why? Because I would rather say what I am thinking than live my life regretting the things I DID NOT SAY. I would rather tell you the truth and hurt your feelings and apologize for hurting them then regret never telling you the truth to begin with. I take up for my family and my friends and love with all my heart. I cry during sad movies. I care about what people think.. to an extent. I am not a people person. I don't like to make up conversation just for the sake of talking to avoid awkward silence. I don't trust a lot of people and I don't always seen the good in them. Yes, life has made me somewhat bitter and I don't always see the positive side of things...I am just realistic. Everything is not all sunny days and roses. Life is about seeing the light through the clouds and rain not about pretending that they don't exist. I purposefully create awkward situations because I think they are funny. I don't have a LOT of friends but I have a few friends that are VERY close to me and I am happy with that. I don't need to be surrounded by a ton of people to be happy. I love to read.. I love to reach and watch fantasy and sci fi, why? Because it is an escape from this life.. this life that is so full of hate, stress, work, school, drama etc. Reading is my escape. I am pro-choice. I believe that everyone has a choice in what they want to do with their lives, who am I to try and make those decisions for them or judge them for the choices they make? I have no problem with people who are gay, lesbian, bisexual, mixed race, or whatever! Why should I have a problem with that? If they are happy then that is ALL that matters! Who are we to tell a person who they can or cannot love?
My point in this ENTIRE entry is that I am who I want to be. I am who I am. I don't care if you don't like me for it.. I don't care if you disagree with what I like, dislike, say, or believe. I have a wonderful family and friends who support me in everything that I do. If you don't like it then you don't have to have anything to do with me. I don't need you. I just wanted to get all of this out because lately I have received a lot of criticism for being myself and quite frankly I'm tired of it! I've spent weeks feeling insecure about myself and WHO I AM and for what??
Who cares if I am 23 years old and I am still in college. Who cares if I have spent all of this time getting a degree that I don't even know if I want to do anymore. Who cares if all my friends are getting married and having children and I am not. Who cares?! Because I have decided.. I DON'T. I am going to do what makes me happy regardless. If anyone reading this has a problem with that then I don't need you in my life.
[So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should I be quiet because I'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
So what am I not supposed to say what I'm saying
Are you offended with the message I'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing]
Christina Aguilera- Can't Hold Us Down