coOl!
this summer is very good so far. i like havent really been home except sleeping which i do ocasionally, sleep home. i have like an empty hole in my life now. my friend_my boyfriend_my love is gone out of my life n this time i think its for good. i dont kow wat to do. when i have him i feel like complete i think hes half of me i feeel like im missing something right now.its so weird i miss him so much. even for one day, since yesterday. well he got madd at me because i decided to go to some kids house for a lil while and i didnt telll him because i knew hed get mad which he did and then he said i lied when i just really never told him which that was my bad because i should have, so he couldnt have gotten as madd.o well its done now cant do nething ti fix it. if he wants to come back he surely can. im not gonna do wat i did all the other times i tryed really hard to get him back because i really like cant do nething without thinking about him unless im good with him. so i might as wel die if im not with him. i dont spent like half as much time with him as i should, because when i do we just sit n like chill n smoke but i like to go out, and then he gets madd and it doesnt work. i dont even feel like talkin bout wat i did last night or nething. but my day was good n my night was alright. i kow that im gonna have to deal with not callin him n see if he misses me and calls me but i always seem to call him even when im with my friends, cause hes all i fuckin think about i wish he could get out of my mind. he like thinks i dont like him either. to tell you the truth i love him. at the beginning of the relationship we chilled madd, n if we could get back together n fix everything i would loveeeeeeeeee to see him everyday.
phil-im sorry for all the mistakes ive made u make some to. i dotn mean to make u upset i just dont think before i do soemthing and i have a different point of view then you. we should have agreed on soemthing n stuck with it.i hate lieying n i dont mean to do it to u i just dont wanna tell u the truth sometimes because ull get madd at me and that not what i want when on the other side i dont think about gettin caught out in a lie. i miss you soooo much. i dont kow how but i fell in love, and i want it to lastt.if we got back together i would fuckin b the best girlfriend ever. i love you