Miserable. More apologies to people who deserve them
It's all coming down right now.
I make people upset, I let too much of myself out.
I don't keep enough secrets for myself.
I'm looking for things I should just let come to me.
I cursed out the girl I call my best friend tonight, because I snapped.
I'm becoming totally neurotic.
I have plenty of regrets for this year. I need to start fresh. After break, I'm going to try and become a better person, a person that other people are happy with.
The following are apologies to people who I owe a lot to. A lot more than most of what I'm about to say covers.
Jacci
I'm sorry for not talking to you for the past month and half, I'm sorry for being selfish, and not appreciating you more. I'm sorry for being petty and getting upset over dumb things. I love you, always will, I don't know if this is too late. But I surely hope you can accept what I say. I wish you luck on whatever you do in life. I will always consider you to be one of the most amazing people I have ever met. The Jacci I knew was genuine, honest, and always giving. I love you my dear. I was the one who was wrong in all of this.
Nichole
You might not understand why our relationship crumbled, I'm not so sure I understand either. I know I need to sit down with you sometime and talk. I love you, you were always there for me, and I backed out on you... I hope this isn't too late. You are still my big sister... I've just been really selfish, and I've held stupid meaningless grudges, that you will probably get a kick out of- because they are so completely pointless. I love you.
Erin
You know I love you, I always will. I'm sorry for freaking out tonight. I thought about what you had to say, I agree, but I also feel a distance between us sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I care a lot more, than you do. Maybe that's just because it's the type of person I am. I want you to know that you're amazing, and talented and beautiful, and noone should ever make you feel otherwise. You're my other half. I love you more than the world, I would do anything for you. And I screwed up tonight.
Ryan
I know we've had plenty of talks, I know we fight, I knew I mess up, I know I take things you say the wrong way. And maybe we are just like an old married couple. I love you always. I'm sorry for the stupid decisions I've made. I want you to know I'm always going to care for you. I love you.
Abir
I won't post what I have to say to you in here, I think it's way too personal.
Rob
The same goes for you, it's too important for Livejournal. I need to get my thoughts in order and explain everything I possibly can, and just hope that you accept it.
I make people upset, I let too much of myself out.
I don't keep enough secrets for myself.
I'm looking for things I should just let come to me.
I cursed out the girl I call my best friend tonight, because I snapped.
I'm becoming totally neurotic.
I have plenty of regrets for this year. I need to start fresh. After break, I'm going to try and become a better person, a person that other people are happy with.
The following are apologies to people who I owe a lot to. A lot more than most of what I'm about to say covers.
Jacci
I'm sorry for not talking to you for the past month and half, I'm sorry for being selfish, and not appreciating you more. I'm sorry for being petty and getting upset over dumb things. I love you, always will, I don't know if this is too late. But I surely hope you can accept what I say. I wish you luck on whatever you do in life. I will always consider you to be one of the most amazing people I have ever met. The Jacci I knew was genuine, honest, and always giving. I love you my dear. I was the one who was wrong in all of this.
Nichole
You might not understand why our relationship crumbled, I'm not so sure I understand either. I know I need to sit down with you sometime and talk. I love you, you were always there for me, and I backed out on you... I hope this isn't too late. You are still my big sister... I've just been really selfish, and I've held stupid meaningless grudges, that you will probably get a kick out of- because they are so completely pointless. I love you.
Erin
You know I love you, I always will. I'm sorry for freaking out tonight. I thought about what you had to say, I agree, but I also feel a distance between us sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I care a lot more, than you do. Maybe that's just because it's the type of person I am. I want you to know that you're amazing, and talented and beautiful, and noone should ever make you feel otherwise. You're my other half. I love you more than the world, I would do anything for you. And I screwed up tonight.
Ryan
I know we've had plenty of talks, I know we fight, I knew I mess up, I know I take things you say the wrong way. And maybe we are just like an old married couple. I love you always. I'm sorry for the stupid decisions I've made. I want you to know I'm always going to care for you. I love you.
Abir
I won't post what I have to say to you in here, I think it's way too personal.
Rob
The same goes for you, it's too important for Livejournal. I need to get my thoughts in order and explain everything I possibly can, and just hope that you accept it.