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So, yeah summer has been so far good except for parts of last night and the fact that everyday north motherfucking farmington keeps sending me letters home saying im a failure....yeah like i didnt already fucking know...
So, now i have to go bak and make up 12 hours for set and fucking i failed math 2nd semester umm...yeah so, they want me to go to summer school but, i really don't want to and i say fuck that 3 weeks of hell again...no, i'd really rather die...right now i feel like shit and i would really rather run away or die then do ne of this shit...every night is the same shit and the people that SUPPOSEDLY care about you don't give a shit at all...don't they understand what they did affects people??? Hmm i wonder everything i've ever done for this person, all the money i've ever spent (not that i care bc i loved this person but, when it comes down to it why would they do this???), all the times i've gotten in trouble bc of this person, all the times i've cleaned up their puke and helped them out, all the times i've let them bring over complete strangers to chill with in my basement, all the times i've helped them out, or listened to them, or tried to help in ne way i possibly could, all the times i wasn't friends with certain people bc that person didn't like them...ALL THE FUCKING TIMES FOR NOTHING....i'm sick of this shit if it aws the other way around we ALL know that wouldnt' have happened and someone would have gotten their ass beat but, NO i'm sick of all this motherfucking shit and this time i'm not backing down i just don't give a shit...i love you to death but, when is it ever enough??? Now it is...I dont' understand why you try and take everything away from me and you just try to make something go bad???
So, yeah i'm really ticked off and not in a good mood at ALL, not at ALL, so neways...w/e i think next year i'm gonna go to a different school for real now bc i cannot handle north and the people and teachers and everything on my ass...it's just too anooying its summer and it still doesnt feel like it...KILL ME NOw!!!
So, yeah i think that i want to get away and i might just leave for the whole summer and like go to a diff. skool next year...yeah w/e
So, now i have to go bak and make up 12 hours for set and fucking i failed math 2nd semester umm...yeah so, they want me to go to summer school but, i really don't want to and i say fuck that 3 weeks of hell again...no, i'd really rather die...right now i feel like shit and i would really rather run away or die then do ne of this shit...every night is the same shit and the people that SUPPOSEDLY care about you don't give a shit at all...don't they understand what they did affects people??? Hmm i wonder everything i've ever done for this person, all the money i've ever spent (not that i care bc i loved this person but, when it comes down to it why would they do this???), all the times i've gotten in trouble bc of this person, all the times i've cleaned up their puke and helped them out, all the times i've let them bring over complete strangers to chill with in my basement, all the times i've helped them out, or listened to them, or tried to help in ne way i possibly could, all the times i wasn't friends with certain people bc that person didn't like them...ALL THE FUCKING TIMES FOR NOTHING....i'm sick of this shit if it aws the other way around we ALL know that wouldnt' have happened and someone would have gotten their ass beat but, NO i'm sick of all this motherfucking shit and this time i'm not backing down i just don't give a shit...i love you to death but, when is it ever enough??? Now it is...I dont' understand why you try and take everything away from me and you just try to make something go bad???
So, yeah i'm really ticked off and not in a good mood at ALL, not at ALL, so neways...w/e i think next year i'm gonna go to a different school for real now bc i cannot handle north and the people and teachers and everything on my ass...it's just too anooying its summer and it still doesnt feel like it...KILL ME NOw!!!
So, yeah i think that i want to get away and i might just leave for the whole summer and like go to a diff. skool next year...yeah w/e