Giving me a ton of shit...

[sweetsourcat]

Some of my friends, are giving me a lotta shit about this new poly friend of mine.  It is bothering me a little.  One friend is clearly jealous, because she is my ex.  I love her very much, and we would both still be together if we weren't so shy.  She also has told me she won't share me.  She would rather not have me anymore than share me.  But she gets very jealous and I have no idea what to do about it...  I try not to talk about my poly friend in front of her because I don't want her to get upset.  Then she gets upset that I am not talking.  Ugh...  I do know at this very moment, she is quite upset at the duration of my phone call with my poly friend.  I am just gonna let it alone and she can call me back when she is ready...

My other friend says he thinks I will get hurt... and that I should be careful.  I understand this.  He got mad because I got off the phone with him in order to return a call to my poly friend.  He keeps telling me to remember who will be there to put me back together when this guy breaks my heart... nice huh?   Very reassuring.

Obviously I do not want to hurt my 2 closest friends over this.  That would be really kinda stupid.  I just keep telling them I am only like this because it is new and that I will start acting normal again.   Someday.  I really DO love my friends... I just wish I wasn't upsetting them... Or could keep my smiles in check as to not irk them so much...

At first I thought they were teasing me... but now I think they might actually be mad some of the time.  Ugh...