If you only knew
I haven't updated in this in so long. Many things have happened.
To start everything off, Sean and I broke up last August. It was a hard time in my life but I learned much from it. He's now engaged to a girl named Ashley and I truly wish them the best. To see them happy makes me happy. I only wish them the best. Sounds weird that this is coming from me now because when everything first went on, I was bitter about the whole situation. I've really realized now that there isn't any reason to hold a grudge. If someone is happy, then you should be happy. Life isn't long enough to be angry or sad. Best of luck to them.
My senior year in high school, I met some truly amazing girls. We were close but now we rarely talk. I look back on the whole situation and I put the whole blame on me. A lot of our friendship went away because of my ignorance and drinking. I took things for granted. They were there for me when I needed them and I just threw our friendship away. If they could only know how much their friendship meant to me. I guess we all go our seperate ways. I just wish I could go back and change the things that I did. To have their friendship back would mean the world to me. Even if it meant just talking on the phone or on-line. Doesn't mean that we have to be hanging out. Maybe a couple times but having parties with Diane is a much needed.
I went through that party stange of my life that I never experienced during high school. Though I did drink on my 19th birthday last Friday, I am 68 days sober. Though there was some good times during those drinking days, there was more bad. I am a much happier person than I was before I feel. I never wanted to experience some of the things that I did while drinking but everything happens for a reason. You learn from everything that happens.
In February, I started talking to an amazing guy. Though at first I started to take our friendship for granted and almost lost him, things are better then ever. He has really made me realize what having self respect is and it was something I didn't have. Not only has he taught me that but he's opened up a whole new world to me. I've learned who I really am and who I thought I was. I can't put that all on him though but a lot of that has to do with him. I thank him for that.. I really do. I never thought that I was going to open my heart up to someone again but to him, I did. Even though we've only been together offically for a month and a few days.. it seems like a life time. I wouldn't necessarily call what we have love.. but I would call it something special. He's what I would call my best friend. On June 25th, he's going to Florida for 6 weeks. It'll be a learning experience for both of us but I think when he comes back in August, our friendship.. and relationship will be stronger then ever. Even if we aren't together at that point.. a friendship is more important then anything.
This summer.. a lot is coming up.
I'm starting a new job at Starbucks with Jarad.. and Mallory just informed me that she wants to work with me. I can't wait.
I'm going to help my grandma fix up her house and sell it. It is truly something that needs to be done.
He's leaving for 6 weeks..
I'm now 19
much wiser
much older..
I'm in the real world now.
I graduated high school almost a year ago.. but it seems like just yesterday.
To start everything off, Sean and I broke up last August. It was a hard time in my life but I learned much from it. He's now engaged to a girl named Ashley and I truly wish them the best. To see them happy makes me happy. I only wish them the best. Sounds weird that this is coming from me now because when everything first went on, I was bitter about the whole situation. I've really realized now that there isn't any reason to hold a grudge. If someone is happy, then you should be happy. Life isn't long enough to be angry or sad. Best of luck to them.
My senior year in high school, I met some truly amazing girls. We were close but now we rarely talk. I look back on the whole situation and I put the whole blame on me. A lot of our friendship went away because of my ignorance and drinking. I took things for granted. They were there for me when I needed them and I just threw our friendship away. If they could only know how much their friendship meant to me. I guess we all go our seperate ways. I just wish I could go back and change the things that I did. To have their friendship back would mean the world to me. Even if it meant just talking on the phone or on-line. Doesn't mean that we have to be hanging out. Maybe a couple times but having parties with Diane is a much needed.
I went through that party stange of my life that I never experienced during high school. Though I did drink on my 19th birthday last Friday, I am 68 days sober. Though there was some good times during those drinking days, there was more bad. I am a much happier person than I was before I feel. I never wanted to experience some of the things that I did while drinking but everything happens for a reason. You learn from everything that happens.
In February, I started talking to an amazing guy. Though at first I started to take our friendship for granted and almost lost him, things are better then ever. He has really made me realize what having self respect is and it was something I didn't have. Not only has he taught me that but he's opened up a whole new world to me. I've learned who I really am and who I thought I was. I can't put that all on him though but a lot of that has to do with him. I thank him for that.. I really do. I never thought that I was going to open my heart up to someone again but to him, I did. Even though we've only been together offically for a month and a few days.. it seems like a life time. I wouldn't necessarily call what we have love.. but I would call it something special. He's what I would call my best friend. On June 25th, he's going to Florida for 6 weeks. It'll be a learning experience for both of us but I think when he comes back in August, our friendship.. and relationship will be stronger then ever. Even if we aren't together at that point.. a friendship is more important then anything.
This summer.. a lot is coming up.
I'm starting a new job at Starbucks with Jarad.. and Mallory just informed me that she wants to work with me. I can't wait.
I'm going to help my grandma fix up her house and sell it. It is truly something that needs to be done.
He's leaving for 6 weeks..
I'm now 19
much wiser
much older..
I'm in the real world now.
I graduated high school almost a year ago.. but it seems like just yesterday.