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Last night I went on a date with this guy in my English class. We went to this cocktail bar in Ferndale, Dino's and got some drinks. I thought it was going to be akward since he and I don't really talk much in class. I was sorta thinking, "what would we talk about?" Conversation flowed easily though which was good. We just sat at the bar talking and then we went back to my house and cuddled and kissed and talked some more before he had to go home. I hate to say this but I realized that this date was the first actual date I've ever been on. All the other times I've gone out on a date I've been romantically involved with them. I've never gone on a first date with someone I'm just getting to know and could possibly be interested with them. Everyone else I was already dating, so it was a nice change. I had a really good time and it got my mind off of all the bullshit going on in my life. There were all those awkward yet nice moments where we caught ourselves just smiling at each other. It was nice to get to know someone new and hear about their lives and for them to be equally as interested in my life. Walking from the bar to his sweet SUV, he put his arm around my shoulder and I put my arm around his back and I could not stop smiling! I haven't felt this good about myself in awhile. It felt good to be all nervous before the date and with the help of my ex-girlfriend, Katie, rushing around and trying to pick out the perfect outfit. Then I did my hair and even a little makeup all to impress some boy. I don't even necessarily think it was to impress him but more to look my best on my date. For the first time in a long time, I went to bed with a smile on my face. It felt really good.
Hopefully he'll call me again and we'll go out again because I had a really good time and I told him so. I'm not sure what will happen but another date would be nice. It's nice to have all thse options too. I'm healing quite nicely from my last relationship, I have an ex, Eric, interested in me again, and now this date. It feels good to be out there again and realize that my last ex, while a wonderful person, is not going to be the only person who will ever value my time and attention and who I am. And that's the best gift I could give myself.
Hopefully he'll call me again and we'll go out again because I had a really good time and I told him so. I'm not sure what will happen but another date would be nice. It's nice to have all thse options too. I'm healing quite nicely from my last relationship, I have an ex, Eric, interested in me again, and now this date. It feels good to be out there again and realize that my last ex, while a wonderful person, is not going to be the only person who will ever value my time and attention and who I am. And that's the best gift I could give myself.