whining
i feel like i need a months worth of sleep.
even though i pass out like immediately when i go to bed, my sleep never seems restful.
i don't feel rested in the morning.
too many worries on my mind i think.
even though nothing is changing immediately, things kind of looming out there in the distance weigh on my mind.
being all alone is a little scary.
this much change all at once is a little scary.
not knowing what changes might result from other changes is a little scary.
i hate that after i have a wonderful evening, given only 10 minutes to my own devices, these thoughts come flooding in. that doesn't seem fair. even though i'll go to bed thinking about what a nice night i had and how lucky i am, all this other crap will be in the back of my mind, worming around, waking me up.
maybe that's just the price to pay.
nighty night.