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[sweetseduciton]

i*m tired and still worrying about everything that*s going on.. i don*t get to jas* graduation tomorrow cuz* i have to freaking work. i went to go request it off and my manager had already made the schedule.. so i needed both tuesday and thursday off.. but it just so happeend that he scheduled me for both of those days. which means i was screwed.. i talked to jas and he said he would rather me have thursday off cuz* that*s when we are going to finalize everything for an apartment.. so that means i miss out on his graduation..

disappointing yes, but more than anything, i just feel like i am letting him down.

anyways.. went to the gyno friday.. and somehow they found another lump in my chest.. on the other side this time.. what sucks is i knew there was one but i didn*t think it was a big thing.. supposively it*s bigger than the last one.. and i have to go get an ultrasound done on it weds morning to see just exactly how bad it is.. then i*ll have to get it out..blah.. I8ll have to go through the same procedure all over again ;-/ oh well last time it wasn*t really that bad i guess.. i thought it would knock me out for at least two weeks but the pain was only extreme the first few days.. i*ll deal..

well i work at 8 tomorrow and since jas isn*t gonna call i*m going to bed.. bye loves<3