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Alright. I'm not going to tell all that has happened to me; just a quick update (considering its been 4 months and all)
Junior year has been quite an interesting one. I loved it at first, but then things fell apart, and i was not ready for that at all. The drama, the loss, the cancer, the love, the grades, the hurt.. emotion. I have had the most amazing times, but for some reason the happy times become surrounded with the bad. It's alright though, because I have learned a lot this year.
Our junior class lost 3 people this year. All of which i knew. Some better than others, but it was rough. Probably the 3 most amazing people you would have ever known. RIP. Chase, Jarrett, Jerrold.
I have lost a best friend. Friendship..? It just ended. Nothing is fixed. I'm cool, live and deal.
I have the most amazing boyfriend. We have been together for more than 6 months now, and it couldnt be better. Justin and I have had to deal with a lot this year, but we have made it through the disapproval, gossip, hurt, and distrust. We are strong, and I love him.
Cancer.. I dont want to talk about it.
Umm, soccer has been better. This year has been the worst year of soccer that I have ever had, yet its the first time our team has made it this far. Ever.. in school history. So for that, I'm excited.. and proud of my team. All I can say is next year better be better, or I'm out.
School is hard. I just wish i was naturally smart at everything. I ware myself out. I stress. Then I become lazy. Thats not okay with me.
Besides all that.. I usually feel lost and confused. But in all the confusion, I have found time to learn. And with what I have learned, I have become content. The world will never be what you want it to be, because you have no control on what will happen with people or life or whatever. But, you have complete control of yourself. You make your own life. So why not make it amazing? Even though life is hard.. stick through it, suck it up, because it WILL get better.
I have some amazing friends. But as the years go on, you lose a lot. I'm only left with a few but I couldn't ask for better people in my life. Amanda J, Kay, Michael, Kev, Cam.. goodness. Amazing. Justine, Melissa, Vanessa.. you guys too.. y'all help me stay strong.
I am a very blessed person. I have an amazing life that is filled with amazing people. I know this. But I also have hard times like other people.. and I'm okay with that because I know I will make it through them. I just wish for acceptance for who I am. Don't look at me for who I was, or who I might be. Love the me as I am now.
Carpe Diem.
Love,
Savannah