Maybe its just me?
It must be just me... Ive been feeling kind of left out lately. I was... and yeah let me get nerdy on you... voted out of these ORGs I was in. Survivor Envious and Survivor Vietnam. I thoroughly enjoyed those games and though in Vietnam my time wasnt cut short, it was in Envious. Now my friends are still in it and I guess I just feel like they dont have any time for me now. It seems that everytime I try to talk to them they are in a challenge or working on a challenge or to busy w/ that game to bother w/ me. Now I try to talk to JohnS and it takes him 15 mins to reply... then Eloy tells me they are both doing a challenge and theres lil time to chit chat... well ok fine, just tell me. I guess I'll just go do something else. Obviously yall dont care. I dont know. Maybe its just me. Maybe Im expecting to much from them... when really I shouldnt at all. Its not their job to keep me busy or entertained. But still... Im just like tossed aside. Its not nice :(
To top it all off I havent talked to Willie in like a wk, so Im missing him terribly. He's been on like 5 mins before I go to school, but thass hardly anything to call a conversation... at least a decent one. He and I wont get to talk t/m either unless he's on at 3am his time, which is... well pretty doubtful. Maybe he'll email me. At least Im able to get those. I wish he could call me. That would be nice. Wouldnt have to catch each other... or wait for him to get online.
Im kind of unsure about if I want him to come. I miss him when we dont talk for a wk. What happens when he comes to see me and then he leaves 2 wks later. How will I handle that? I dont evn want to think about it... its like... he comes into my life and then 2/3 wks later ripped from it. Its a horrible thought. I dunno if I could deal w/ it. But I also dont think I could go any longer w/o seeing him. Ive already gone 5+ yrs w/ just the internet connecting us. I wish he could just be here t/m. Would be so much more amazing and wouldnt give me such a stressattack waiting for the time to come. Which might I add is about 11 months away. Which is for freakin ever.
Im sure my aniexty about it will go away, but in the meantime Im scared beyond belief...
And there was just a screeching cat outside that scared the crap outta me. Stupid strays. Pickin fights w/ other cats outside my house. Both of myne are indoor cats so they dont deal w/ that crap. Angel, the male, acts all tough like he could take 'em down, but we both know he'd crumple at the site of some stray cat ready to bite, scratch, and screech when all he's use to is playing w/ Charlie, his sister. Charlie on the other hand would ... well she wouldnt evn get out of the house to evn be in that predicament. She's a lil to afraid to evn get by the door... lol. She's super skiddish and very shy. So when that door opens, she might be brave and creep up to it to see whats going on outside, but she would never step out the door. Angel would probally dart out, though after spending a night, a time or two, outside, he tends to think twice before doing so. And like the one time he was being attacked by a bird in the backyard. LOL. Stupid cat.
Still no one is talkn to me...
Maybe Im not as important as some ppl lead me to believe
*shrugs shoulders*
To top it all off I havent talked to Willie in like a wk, so Im missing him terribly. He's been on like 5 mins before I go to school, but thass hardly anything to call a conversation... at least a decent one. He and I wont get to talk t/m either unless he's on at 3am his time, which is... well pretty doubtful. Maybe he'll email me. At least Im able to get those. I wish he could call me. That would be nice. Wouldnt have to catch each other... or wait for him to get online.
Im kind of unsure about if I want him to come. I miss him when we dont talk for a wk. What happens when he comes to see me and then he leaves 2 wks later. How will I handle that? I dont evn want to think about it... its like... he comes into my life and then 2/3 wks later ripped from it. Its a horrible thought. I dunno if I could deal w/ it. But I also dont think I could go any longer w/o seeing him. Ive already gone 5+ yrs w/ just the internet connecting us. I wish he could just be here t/m. Would be so much more amazing and wouldnt give me such a stressattack waiting for the time to come. Which might I add is about 11 months away. Which is for freakin ever.
Im sure my aniexty about it will go away, but in the meantime Im scared beyond belief...
And there was just a screeching cat outside that scared the crap outta me. Stupid strays. Pickin fights w/ other cats outside my house. Both of myne are indoor cats so they dont deal w/ that crap. Angel, the male, acts all tough like he could take 'em down, but we both know he'd crumple at the site of some stray cat ready to bite, scratch, and screech when all he's use to is playing w/ Charlie, his sister. Charlie on the other hand would ... well she wouldnt evn get out of the house to evn be in that predicament. She's a lil to afraid to evn get by the door... lol. She's super skiddish and very shy. So when that door opens, she might be brave and creep up to it to see whats going on outside, but she would never step out the door. Angel would probally dart out, though after spending a night, a time or two, outside, he tends to think twice before doing so. And like the one time he was being attacked by a bird in the backyard. LOL. Stupid cat.
Still no one is talkn to me...
Maybe Im not as important as some ppl lead me to believe
*shrugs shoulders*