i've lost 4 pounds since i've been home.

[sweetsabine]

i want to be inspired. more importantly, i want to inspire myself. im sick of relying on other people to make me happy. i've done that for far too long and now i'm slowly realizing, maybe for the first time ever, that i am perfectly capable of making myself happy. i don't need a boy, or anyone for that matter, to make me happy i can do it myself. theres plenty of things that i love doing for myself, and i'm glad i came back from the craziness of chicago this summer to take a few steps back and really discover them. i don't consider this selfish, i think of it more like, i have to live with myself every day of my life, so i might as well learn to like myself. i got my hair cut, i'm getting it dyed this week, (made the appointment on an impulse...we'll see what happens), i'm reading more, i've put myself on this new workout plan, i'm saving my money, and i'm actually surprising myself with how well i'm doing. this summer is all about me. i mean, i'll be hanging out with friends and turning 21 and going on vacation with my family and all that fun stuff too, but i've been long overdue for some good quality me time.

p.s. the 4 pound thing is true. 16 more to go. fear not. there will be updates.