month...a month is all i have 2 say.
Holding onto what escapes me, what he has, a better look that will last and last. i cant wait till i see u in heaven when i can here u say welcome home and hold me in your arms again and ill be ur little girl just like always. i want so badly to hear your voice, to be in your arms, to hear u say i love you
In my thoughts in my dreams in my head and my heart...where cant u see my emotion? why cant i hide? i wish things could be different, i wish things could have been better, i wish there was more time, i wish i could start over and do things differently...start fresh and free, but things have changed...its different now, and i wish u would come back to me and make things better, just like old times when we used to fight constantly...i miss those memories with u...i think about them all too often. i miss u.
i cant even put into words what i want to say or how i feel but i know im loved expecially by u...u know who u are...and i love u too
i want to hate u half as much as i hate myself...
i wish i could say it doesnt bother me but its the one thing i think about most and id be lying
i wish i could say it doesnt effect me either but everything seems to remind me of u
in loving memory...
Jeffrey L. Gindville
9-17-2004
Losing a father is the hardest thing ive ever had to do and there are so many things i wish i would have said and done but its too late so live today like it could be your last bc for all u know it actually could be and tell the people who mean the most that u love them and let ur friends know how u feel bc for all u know i may not be here tomorrow...then what