just remember that I'm your baby
well well well.. Tonight I went into Manhattan to meet up with Sarah B to go out to dinner. NOw, I am exhausted. I guess I was pretty busy today- working out things for transferring to Temple- mostly done, I just have to wait to hear from them so I can register, and things of that nature. Its exciting, but I am nervous- mostly anxious. I cannot wait to be close to Josh. woooeeee!
So I was on the subway and bunch of assholes came on- they couldnt have been older than 16, and I just started wondering (between their interruptions of "I fucked that bitch right" AND "yo that shit is hot") if they would ever feel anything real- would they ever know the love I know? the passion I feel? probably not is my conclusion- they didnt seem to be raised in a open and respectful environment, I guess. Who knows? I could totally be wrong, and I genuinly hope I am. I just felt like their future- emotionally speaking- would be bleek and void of anything actually real. eh- I guess I shouldnt over think things like this- I dont think they have much importance- it was jsut a thought. I guess my point is- I see people every day that act as though they feel a certain way, and if someone or something threatens those feelings, they back down- they give in. with a snap of a finger and cruel word or two- their beliefs are out the window. passionless. (is that a word?) im rambling- i have a case of the severe missies, aka joshie withdraw. and so my mind wanders and searches for other things to preoccupy myself with. perhaps.. that is the case tonight.
In other news, Thanksgiving is quickly approaching. I am a bit apprehensive. There are many to see, and things to do, but I would love to just sit in my room and snuggle with a certain boo bear. hes cuddly and i love him THIS much. RENT comes out though- the wednesday before. Being a RENTHEAD, like myself, this is monumental. It was supposed to come out like 3 years ago. I am so excited- seriously- when it comes out on DVD, I will make you all watch it and fall in love with it like I did. I also am going to see HARRY POTTER: THE GOBLET OF FIRE this weekend in Manhattan. Im going by myself, but I am okay with this. I will enjoy it so much- plus I want to see it with daddy and joshie some time next week. Tomorrow is already Wednesday- I go home in like 6 days. this is nice. I wish my brother was coming home. hes not. he wont be home for Christmas either. nor will my Dad (he will be back at work). and my Mom is working. should be a nice holiday season, nonetheless- I am hoping. my sub-families will of course make do (Temos-other Chiocchi's- Barnansky's, etc.)
okay.. enough is enough.
love.
So I was on the subway and bunch of assholes came on- they couldnt have been older than 16, and I just started wondering (between their interruptions of "I fucked that bitch right" AND "yo that shit is hot") if they would ever feel anything real- would they ever know the love I know? the passion I feel? probably not is my conclusion- they didnt seem to be raised in a open and respectful environment, I guess. Who knows? I could totally be wrong, and I genuinly hope I am. I just felt like their future- emotionally speaking- would be bleek and void of anything actually real. eh- I guess I shouldnt over think things like this- I dont think they have much importance- it was jsut a thought. I guess my point is- I see people every day that act as though they feel a certain way, and if someone or something threatens those feelings, they back down- they give in. with a snap of a finger and cruel word or two- their beliefs are out the window. passionless. (is that a word?) im rambling- i have a case of the severe missies, aka joshie withdraw. and so my mind wanders and searches for other things to preoccupy myself with. perhaps.. that is the case tonight.
In other news, Thanksgiving is quickly approaching. I am a bit apprehensive. There are many to see, and things to do, but I would love to just sit in my room and snuggle with a certain boo bear. hes cuddly and i love him THIS much. RENT comes out though- the wednesday before. Being a RENTHEAD, like myself, this is monumental. It was supposed to come out like 3 years ago. I am so excited- seriously- when it comes out on DVD, I will make you all watch it and fall in love with it like I did. I also am going to see HARRY POTTER: THE GOBLET OF FIRE this weekend in Manhattan. Im going by myself, but I am okay with this. I will enjoy it so much- plus I want to see it with daddy and joshie some time next week. Tomorrow is already Wednesday- I go home in like 6 days. this is nice. I wish my brother was coming home. hes not. he wont be home for Christmas either. nor will my Dad (he will be back at work). and my Mom is working. should be a nice holiday season, nonetheless- I am hoping. my sub-families will of course make do (Temos-other Chiocchi's- Barnansky's, etc.)
okay.. enough is enough.
love.