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got cliffy's present for christmas together. SO EXCITED!! also, the lack of emailing from my "friends" from iha speaks volumes. little self-absorbed lovelies that they are. okay i know we're busy and all but yuck. also, so excited i never get called to go out or do anything with them anymore. i got 2 texts (i think--high estimate) about T-giving. grand. honestly, i wasnt in the mood and forgot but a call would have been nice?? wtf are texts anyway?
ever want to change the way you look at things? like your personality...to some extent. to some great extent? cause i sometimes think i do. sometimes i think it's me and sometimes i think it's everyone else. are people really just not that interesting? there's some sort of complex situation going on here...having to do with: wanting to be accepted/wanted yet not really wanting to do what they're doing. i have to learn that being me and doing whatever is more fun than being "someone else" and doing things that don't please or interest me and faking my way through things. i've never been comfortable faking things.
i feel like i've never had trouble making friends, yet i feel like i've always had trouble making friends. i never wanted to be one of the "cool kids" yet i sort of did. i want to be a cool kid, just for being me. is that too much to ask? i somehow doubt i can be alone in this.
i wonder what things i should be fixing in my personality...cause i know there are some things that DO need some amount of fixing up. i shall ponder that...
ever want to change the way you look at things? like your personality...to some extent. to some great extent? cause i sometimes think i do. sometimes i think it's me and sometimes i think it's everyone else. are people really just not that interesting? there's some sort of complex situation going on here...having to do with: wanting to be accepted/wanted yet not really wanting to do what they're doing. i have to learn that being me and doing whatever is more fun than being "someone else" and doing things that don't please or interest me and faking my way through things. i've never been comfortable faking things.
i feel like i've never had trouble making friends, yet i feel like i've always had trouble making friends. i never wanted to be one of the "cool kids" yet i sort of did. i want to be a cool kid, just for being me. is that too much to ask? i somehow doubt i can be alone in this.
i wonder what things i should be fixing in my personality...cause i know there are some things that DO need some amount of fixing up. i shall ponder that...