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well my ipod is dead. dead, dead. hard drive dead, dead. now i need to get a new one i think. it's the best route. a brand new ipod, with a nice screen and a new warranty. of course that will run me $225. money i don't have. but, i use it so much that i miss it. but i'm spoiled. but during summer i will use it most because i'll be at the beach and i'll be a the seminars and maybe i'll listen to it during that time and i miss having it. so i don't know. i could wait but it's inevitable that i get another one...just...when?
i had a nice walk with my mom today. i went home and read and walked. it was nice. now i'm here. later i'll read and go to sleep. sounds boring, but it's nice boring. so i'm actually pretty pleased.
i'm not hanging out with HS people. i'm avoiding them. i'm just so bored and uninterested in them. completely. and i don't look forward to driving like an hour to see them (1/2 hr there and 1/2 back) on top of the rest of it. they are just so juvenile. we're not interested in the same things. i don't care to drink myself silly, smoke, talk about sex, call each other whores and the like. just NOT INTERESTED. i might be acting like i'm 35 instead of 22 but i just couldn't care less. i'm content with my life and they're probably confused or just interested in different things. period, the end.
my dog's had a siezure. she's old. might have had multiple seizures today. might be time to say bye to her. i never see her much anymore though so i don't think it'll be as rough on me. it's just strange. i feel badly because i like taz, c's dog better than i like her most of the time now. 1 because i'm around taz more and 2 because he's a tiny lap dog 3 because she never liked me as much as she likes my mom and 4 because she's boring now and old and she never seems happy anymore and that sort of is depressing to me. so there it is, i just feel bad for lettie now. she keeps walkign around strangely and going into places she doesn't normal go...it's just all very strange. i feel bad, she's like a demented old lady. i was never good around old people. never. i went to visit the nursing homes and that just freaked me out. i never had grandparents i knew (just 1 and i didn't really know him) so i never had the benefit of knowing one of them and being used to old pepoel that way...anyway, it's very strange. old dogs, old people. i'm not good with old. it'll be bad when my parents get old or when i get old. i wonder how i'll deal with that...
i had a nice walk with my mom today. i went home and read and walked. it was nice. now i'm here. later i'll read and go to sleep. sounds boring, but it's nice boring. so i'm actually pretty pleased.
i'm not hanging out with HS people. i'm avoiding them. i'm just so bored and uninterested in them. completely. and i don't look forward to driving like an hour to see them (1/2 hr there and 1/2 back) on top of the rest of it. they are just so juvenile. we're not interested in the same things. i don't care to drink myself silly, smoke, talk about sex, call each other whores and the like. just NOT INTERESTED. i might be acting like i'm 35 instead of 22 but i just couldn't care less. i'm content with my life and they're probably confused or just interested in different things. period, the end.
my dog's had a siezure. she's old. might have had multiple seizures today. might be time to say bye to her. i never see her much anymore though so i don't think it'll be as rough on me. it's just strange. i feel badly because i like taz, c's dog better than i like her most of the time now. 1 because i'm around taz more and 2 because he's a tiny lap dog 3 because she never liked me as much as she likes my mom and 4 because she's boring now and old and she never seems happy anymore and that sort of is depressing to me. so there it is, i just feel bad for lettie now. she keeps walkign around strangely and going into places she doesn't normal go...it's just all very strange. i feel bad, she's like a demented old lady. i was never good around old people. never. i went to visit the nursing homes and that just freaked me out. i never had grandparents i knew (just 1 and i didn't really know him) so i never had the benefit of knowing one of them and being used to old pepoel that way...anyway, it's very strange. old dogs, old people. i'm not good with old. it'll be bad when my parents get old or when i get old. i wonder how i'll deal with that...