I want out
So today was a good day for finishing the Essay From Hell and receiving an unexpectedly cheap gas and electric bill. It was also a good day for being a geek and playing on the Sims 2, making an almost exact replica of our house and putting us in it and then watching in amusment when little sim me flirted with little sim Jeni just once and little sim Jeni fell in love with little sim me.
I'm craving old times. I'm actually sick of hearing about the fuckedupness of people. And I'm sick of hearing bullshit that I knew when I first heard it. Going home just for two days was just what I needed. I've never ever actually wanted to spend time in my house at home with my family who drive me actually clinically insane - a mother who shouts rather than talks and three siblings each of whom are younger and completely crazy in totally different ways - who would want to? But I've never been gladder of my house and my family than I was on sunday when I arrived. And for some reason that fact makes me really sad. I shouldnt want to escape life here so much. It's supposed to be the best time of my life. I will always remember the man I bought my bed off making the comment "University was the best time of my life" as he took my money and stared off into the distance. I want to feel like that. At the moment all I feel is stressed and claustrophobic.
And some people just. don't. get. it. the world revolves around no one.
I'm craving old times. I'm actually sick of hearing about the fuckedupness of people. And I'm sick of hearing bullshit that I knew when I first heard it. Going home just for two days was just what I needed. I've never ever actually wanted to spend time in my house at home with my family who drive me actually clinically insane - a mother who shouts rather than talks and three siblings each of whom are younger and completely crazy in totally different ways - who would want to? But I've never been gladder of my house and my family than I was on sunday when I arrived. And for some reason that fact makes me really sad. I shouldnt want to escape life here so much. It's supposed to be the best time of my life. I will always remember the man I bought my bed off making the comment "University was the best time of my life" as he took my money and stared off into the distance. I want to feel like that. At the moment all I feel is stressed and claustrophobic.
And some people just. don't. get. it. the world revolves around no one.