Sometimes people make you think......
So im on my way to skool thinking it would be like any ordinary day...and not knowing that i was would learn a very valuable lesson in life....homeroom was crazy as usual...get to english and everything is going normal...we continue reading "Waiting for Godot"...and then we get into the discussion of one of the characterss in the play called Lucky...and how he is just like us...smart but still holds on that extra baggage that might not let us do what we want...and then we are lookin at our mirror image Pozzo...who is telling us not to do it...and telling us what to do...in conclusion...we are the only ones that can tell ourselves what to do and what not to do...no one else...and we keep ourselves from our dreams...After seeing my english teacher get into tears...and makin me almost cry it made me think a lot and it basically set my mood for the rest of the day...
I realized that i am a person that holds A LOT of baggage...guys i might seem like im always happy go lucky and stuff but im not...ive had my share of drama...no one knows that i was depressed all through out my junior year...i wouldnt go out on the weekends...felt left out...it a long story which i dont want to get into..b/c...it really did suck...went through a lot of crap that i kept to myself and didnt tell anyone about...it was all in me...we all carry some type of baggege and that was mine through out junior year being lonely...it sucks to say but its tru...There is all thiis other stuff...that 2day i was just like fuck it...why worry so much about things if u dont even know if they care let it go...why am i going to let something that was in the past hold me down...its not worth it...and that whole things still has me kinda down...just to hear my teacher cry..and say...those things and telling us not to be like her....hurts....::watery eyed::it got me str8 in the heart....right were it hurts the most...Basically telling us that we shouldnt deal with the bullshit...and all the drama...and just to live our lives to the fullest...all i have to say is...WOW....i admire that woman...i dont know how life without her is going to be when we graduate...she is really our jewish mother...::smiles::
I wanna tell my friend that non of my loneliness was ever their fault...i kinda put it on myself...in a way...
On another note...MARYA AND I TOOK OMAAR HOSTAGE TODAY!!!!IT WAS A LOT OF FUNN!!!LOL!!we wouldnt let him out of the car till he told us something we wanted to know....what an adventure....i love you mar...and im so happy that we have gotten a lot closer lol...we are attached to the hip for sure...hehe...in the words of omaar..."we are in love"...lmao...i love you girl...hehe..gonna miss ya when u go off to where ever you go to college...::tear tear::...i wish u didnt have to leave...
Thanks omaar 4 finally telling us jeeezz....was it really that difficult?!?!?!lol
So my friend finally talked to MYSTERY BOY...and he said he was gonna talk to him...i dunno what to think about it anymore...he told him he was gonna talk to em about it tonight...but only god knows...i havent talked to him in 2 days...and if i dont talk to him today it will be 3...i dunno what it is...i have such bad luck with guys...it sucksssss......w/e...::sigh:: it sucks not knwo what is gonna happen...it drives me a little crazy...
well guys i think that is it for now....i want to be that LUCKY person...who is bright yet doesnt hold on to all that baggage...and doesnt let anything or anyone get in there way....
-Jess everything will be okay...i promise you that...hehe..
-Luly...damn i miss u...hehe...i swear if we dont hang out this weekend...we are gonna have some issues...i love you mama!
::cries quitely::
-C-
º.: *·."A Friendship Is The Only Cement That Will Ever Hold The World Together".·*:.º Woodrow Willson
To all my guardian angles....I love you guys with all my heart!!!hehe!!
I realized that i am a person that holds A LOT of baggage...guys i might seem like im always happy go lucky and stuff but im not...ive had my share of drama...no one knows that i was depressed all through out my junior year...i wouldnt go out on the weekends...felt left out...it a long story which i dont want to get into..b/c...it really did suck...went through a lot of crap that i kept to myself and didnt tell anyone about...it was all in me...we all carry some type of baggege and that was mine through out junior year being lonely...it sucks to say but its tru...There is all thiis other stuff...that 2day i was just like fuck it...why worry so much about things if u dont even know if they care let it go...why am i going to let something that was in the past hold me down...its not worth it...and that whole things still has me kinda down...just to hear my teacher cry..and say...those things and telling us not to be like her....hurts....::watery eyed::it got me str8 in the heart....right were it hurts the most...Basically telling us that we shouldnt deal with the bullshit...and all the drama...and just to live our lives to the fullest...all i have to say is...WOW....i admire that woman...i dont know how life without her is going to be when we graduate...she is really our jewish mother...::smiles::
I wanna tell my friend that non of my loneliness was ever their fault...i kinda put it on myself...in a way...
On another note...MARYA AND I TOOK OMAAR HOSTAGE TODAY!!!!IT WAS A LOT OF FUNN!!!LOL!!we wouldnt let him out of the car till he told us something we wanted to know....what an adventure....i love you mar...and im so happy that we have gotten a lot closer lol...we are attached to the hip for sure...hehe...in the words of omaar..."we are in love"...lmao...i love you girl...hehe..gonna miss ya when u go off to where ever you go to college...::tear tear::...i wish u didnt have to leave...
Thanks omaar 4 finally telling us jeeezz....was it really that difficult?!?!?!lol
So my friend finally talked to MYSTERY BOY...and he said he was gonna talk to him...i dunno what to think about it anymore...he told him he was gonna talk to em about it tonight...but only god knows...i havent talked to him in 2 days...and if i dont talk to him today it will be 3...i dunno what it is...i have such bad luck with guys...it sucksssss......w/e...::sigh:: it sucks not knwo what is gonna happen...it drives me a little crazy...
well guys i think that is it for now....i want to be that LUCKY person...who is bright yet doesnt hold on to all that baggage...and doesnt let anything or anyone get in there way....
-Jess everything will be okay...i promise you that...hehe..
-Luly...damn i miss u...hehe...i swear if we dont hang out this weekend...we are gonna have some issues...i love you mama!
::cries quitely::
-C-
º.: *·."A Friendship Is The Only Cement That Will Ever Hold The World Together".·*:.º Woodrow Willson
To all my guardian angles....I love you guys with all my heart!!!hehe!!