(no subject)
this is pretty sad to say, but i can't even remember the last time my mom said the words "i love you" to me. we were never that type of mother and daughter. most of the time we don't even get along. like my dad says, we have that cat and mouse relationship where one is always attacking the other. simply put, we're just not typical.
this morning touched me. i'd usually be mad if she woke me up early, but today was totally different. today is the day of her surgery. i honestly didn't think it was that big of a deal anymore because of the way she acted after the doctor diagnosed her, but when i saw the tears in her eyes, i couldn't help, but want to cry myself. as she collapsed into my arms, i knew i couldn't cry just yet, but just be strong for her because i didn't want her to worry about me. i didn't want her to worry that at that instant, i was scared and didn't want her to go. i just wanted to be as strong as possible, but when she said "i love you," i couldn't hold back.
yes, my mom and i have many problems, but today made me realize so much. she is my mother, and even though she criticizes me 99% of the time, she does love me. i just wish that i wasn't so ignorant and oblivious to all the things she does for me. because if i didn't act the way i did, that "i love you" would be around more often.
this morning touched me. i'd usually be mad if she woke me up early, but today was totally different. today is the day of her surgery. i honestly didn't think it was that big of a deal anymore because of the way she acted after the doctor diagnosed her, but when i saw the tears in her eyes, i couldn't help, but want to cry myself. as she collapsed into my arms, i knew i couldn't cry just yet, but just be strong for her because i didn't want her to worry about me. i didn't want her to worry that at that instant, i was scared and didn't want her to go. i just wanted to be as strong as possible, but when she said "i love you," i couldn't hold back.
yes, my mom and i have many problems, but today made me realize so much. she is my mother, and even though she criticizes me 99% of the time, she does love me. i just wish that i wasn't so ignorant and oblivious to all the things she does for me. because if i didn't act the way i did, that "i love you" would be around more often.