he says I will, I say I won't. I'll bend but not break...
so my dad wont come pick me up from college next week. im such an inconvinence to him. and my room wont be done, so he wants me to stay somehwere else for a few days. he says all i want from him is money, which he doesnt have. he says that im selfish, and so are my brothers. that we dont understand what its like having no income. especially me cause im 200 miles away. he says that he doesnt want my moms ashes in the house anymore. that they are for us, not him. he wishes that i was more like him and not my mom. he says that he knows how to love better than she did. he says that he dropped me off to college and doesnt want to pick me up yet...he does that at the end of the year, not now. he says that he loves me and im just greed and selfish and cant see his love. he says that my mom spoiled us kids and now we are ungrateful.
I say fine, don't pick me up because I have a wonderful best friend who is willing to cram her belongings with mine in her car to take me home. I say that I'm not an inconvinence but his daughter, and responsibility. I say, "who cares if my room isn't done?" I can live with one of my many amazing friends for a few days, maybe even the entire break. I say that all I want from him is true, unconditional love, which he should have. I say that I am not selfish or I would be going to Marquette University, always asking for money, never would have gotten a job, and would ask for materialistic items for Christmas. Instead I went to Grand Valley, never ask for money, work at Target and want him to put the interent back in the house for my brother for Christmas. I say that I do know what its like not having an income, especially cause I'm 200 miles away from Target and my car. I say fine, don't have mom's ashes, but don't put them in the closet either. Give them to my brothers, and I, our Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles. I say I'm proud to be more like my mom than him because I have learned how to love unconditionally and be there for others. I say fine, don't pick me up, ever. I will have my car for the end of the year, so go aheah and save your gas and money, spend it on a new heart. I say that I love the dad I used to know before mom died and before Kelly. I say I love him now, but I am too hurt to show it. I say he may love me, but I don't see it. I say that we were spoiled as kids and I am even more grateful today. I say that I WILL SURVIVE whatever he throws my way, because I am determined and will persevere. I say I will become successful, help others and love unconditionally. I say that I will take care of my family, but first I have to take care of myself. I say goodbye to him and everything my old life represents. I say hello new Danielle, new life and new hope.