ready for another change of scenery
h'okay so... it has been a while, but here i am, finally updating... partly as a result of harassment from one Mr. Lawton who i claim never leaves me notes, but argues that i need to update more if he is to leave more notes. so here you have it:
It is now officially monday, my last day of classes for the year. I only have an english lecture that i need to go to today for purposes of exam review. After that I have about a week now to cram for my first 3 exams which are the 18th, 20th and 21st. I plan to get a lot of packing and cleaning and laundry and other such things underway in the next week also. I figure it is better to get a chunk of it done now rather than closer to exams where i would need to be finding a way to fit it in when i should be studying.
studying... there is something i need to not allow myself to procrastinate much longer about.. but it's hard not to.
After my first 3 exams i have 6 days to prepare for the last 2, which are the 26th and 27th. Hopefully since i dont foresee the studying for those to be overly demanding, i will be able to find plenty of time to hang out with friends who have similar exam schedules... after all who knows when i'll ever get back here again. my future is still up in the air.
Campus rules are that I am to be moved out by noon on the 28th. hopefully i get out earlier than not so that I will be able to get home that much faster. My mind is preoccupied these days with the thoughts of enjoying springtime in new hampshire the way i like to. Specifically I want to take a lot of nice long walks, clear my head and enjoy air that isn't polluted with exhaust fumes, noise and whatever else. There is nothing quite like a late night walk by the river behind my house with the crickets and the peepfrogs chirping.
Also not surprisingly, I am anticipating plans I have already made for after my return. The 29th I am spending with Justin, The 1st, i believe it is, I am going to the wrestling PPV at the Verizon with my brother and the following day I will be returning to work.
Shockingly, perhaps, I am looking forward to work. This is not without reason however. I am very nearly broke now, with my remaining funds basically delegated to food, laundry and phone bills. Also, it will be something of a relief to have a job I know I am good at that isnt too mentally demanding to fill my hours rather than endless essays and such. It will be a bit of a break for my head. Also this summer, it had been suggested that there were a lot more things they wanted to teach me, but hadnt before because of time limitations and such. The more they wanna teach me, the more interesting that will make my job (and stressful, but hey i am used to it) and ultimately, if i stick around in the fall that would put me in a better position to maybe move ahead a bit. Who knows. Right now it all seems so exciting probably because, again, I feel like i need a change in scenery and activities to fill my day. I am likely getting very far ahead of myself, but who knows.
The 7th is my first class day at the massage school... that should be an adventure...
Already my summer is filling up with all kinds of possibilities and things that, if all goes well, will make it very exciting and in short, probably one of the best summers I have had. There are the plans for the skydiving trip I am hoping will get off the ground (pun HONESTLY not intended) and also a trip to Florida for a week to see my aunt, plus countless plans with Justin. I am also hoping to get the opportunity to chill some more with coworkers (matt and i have started discussing this). I think what the past months here have done for me is really made me more active in planning my life and taking chances and trying new things. It really is amazing what a difference a simple location change can make.
Admittedly... i am wishing i could have it all in one place so i wouldnt have to leave here to be with the ones i love, or pursue my random inclinations. But in life, that is just not always possible. I am gonna miss people here but hopefully it all works out and the few people i have grown closest to will keep in touch. I have tossed out the invitation for a summer road trip to the states... so ya never know what will happen. In some way everything happens for a reason. These days it is best for me to be optimistic and focus on the future, as scary as that is for me.
So there you have it.. my random, pointless rant. But it pretty well sums a lot up. Hopefully I will get around to updating in a few weeks.
Later kids.
"Tonight we’re gonna order in, drinking wine and watchin' CNN. It’s dark, I know, but then again, it’s the brightest thing I got when I’m covered in rain...when I'm covered in rain.
From fireworks to fireplaces, Summer stole what Fall replaces, and now we're people watching all the people, people watching you and I, standing by the missing signs, at the CVS, by the checkout line. Put your tiny hands in mine, 'cuz you're the brightest thing I got when I'm covered in rain...when I'm covered in rain.
And it's alright if you don't wanna go home. And it's alright if you don't wanna be alone now. And it's alright if you dont wanna go home, I understand. 'Cuz we're covered in rain...now we're covered in rain."
It is now officially monday, my last day of classes for the year. I only have an english lecture that i need to go to today for purposes of exam review. After that I have about a week now to cram for my first 3 exams which are the 18th, 20th and 21st. I plan to get a lot of packing and cleaning and laundry and other such things underway in the next week also. I figure it is better to get a chunk of it done now rather than closer to exams where i would need to be finding a way to fit it in when i should be studying.
studying... there is something i need to not allow myself to procrastinate much longer about.. but it's hard not to.
After my first 3 exams i have 6 days to prepare for the last 2, which are the 26th and 27th. Hopefully since i dont foresee the studying for those to be overly demanding, i will be able to find plenty of time to hang out with friends who have similar exam schedules... after all who knows when i'll ever get back here again. my future is still up in the air.
Campus rules are that I am to be moved out by noon on the 28th. hopefully i get out earlier than not so that I will be able to get home that much faster. My mind is preoccupied these days with the thoughts of enjoying springtime in new hampshire the way i like to. Specifically I want to take a lot of nice long walks, clear my head and enjoy air that isn't polluted with exhaust fumes, noise and whatever else. There is nothing quite like a late night walk by the river behind my house with the crickets and the peepfrogs chirping.
Also not surprisingly, I am anticipating plans I have already made for after my return. The 29th I am spending with Justin, The 1st, i believe it is, I am going to the wrestling PPV at the Verizon with my brother and the following day I will be returning to work.
Shockingly, perhaps, I am looking forward to work. This is not without reason however. I am very nearly broke now, with my remaining funds basically delegated to food, laundry and phone bills. Also, it will be something of a relief to have a job I know I am good at that isnt too mentally demanding to fill my hours rather than endless essays and such. It will be a bit of a break for my head. Also this summer, it had been suggested that there were a lot more things they wanted to teach me, but hadnt before because of time limitations and such. The more they wanna teach me, the more interesting that will make my job (and stressful, but hey i am used to it) and ultimately, if i stick around in the fall that would put me in a better position to maybe move ahead a bit. Who knows. Right now it all seems so exciting probably because, again, I feel like i need a change in scenery and activities to fill my day. I am likely getting very far ahead of myself, but who knows.
The 7th is my first class day at the massage school... that should be an adventure...
Already my summer is filling up with all kinds of possibilities and things that, if all goes well, will make it very exciting and in short, probably one of the best summers I have had. There are the plans for the skydiving trip I am hoping will get off the ground (pun HONESTLY not intended) and also a trip to Florida for a week to see my aunt, plus countless plans with Justin. I am also hoping to get the opportunity to chill some more with coworkers (matt and i have started discussing this). I think what the past months here have done for me is really made me more active in planning my life and taking chances and trying new things. It really is amazing what a difference a simple location change can make.
Admittedly... i am wishing i could have it all in one place so i wouldnt have to leave here to be with the ones i love, or pursue my random inclinations. But in life, that is just not always possible. I am gonna miss people here but hopefully it all works out and the few people i have grown closest to will keep in touch. I have tossed out the invitation for a summer road trip to the states... so ya never know what will happen. In some way everything happens for a reason. These days it is best for me to be optimistic and focus on the future, as scary as that is for me.
So there you have it.. my random, pointless rant. But it pretty well sums a lot up. Hopefully I will get around to updating in a few weeks.
Later kids.
"Tonight we’re gonna order in, drinking wine and watchin' CNN. It’s dark, I know, but then again, it’s the brightest thing I got when I’m covered in rain...when I'm covered in rain.
From fireworks to fireplaces, Summer stole what Fall replaces, and now we're people watching all the people, people watching you and I, standing by the missing signs, at the CVS, by the checkout line. Put your tiny hands in mine, 'cuz you're the brightest thing I got when I'm covered in rain...when I'm covered in rain.
And it's alright if you don't wanna go home. And it's alright if you don't wanna be alone now. And it's alright if you dont wanna go home, I understand. 'Cuz we're covered in rain...now we're covered in rain."