You don't even know how to love me!
I don't know why I'm so hung up on finding the love of my life... Or so stuck in hoping and waiting for him to find me... I don't understand why the fairytale is so important to me, the prince, the love, the happily ever after.... I don't want someone to complete me, but yet someone who is going to compliment who I already am. I want someone who looks at me and is lost for words, that they can't begin to explain who they feel about me. They can't explain that little thing about me that just drives them crazy. I want a guy that I would never have to even ask him how he feels about me because he would always tell me and more than that he would show me. I want a guy that can't go a day without thinking about me. I want a guy that believes in me and encourages me to be more and to do more.... A guy that is happy just holding my hand. Someone who when I walk into a room their face lights up with the biggest smile.... A smile so big that its contagious. Just someone fabulous.... thats what I want... My prince. I don't know where He is, but I hope he knows i'm thinking of him and waiting for the day we met face to face.
I'm just tired of trying to make things work with guys that aren't worth my time. Guys who don't treasure me the way I want to be and guys that I don't see myself going through the rest of my life with. I'm tired of guys that don't know how to love me, don't know how to kiss me, don't know how to play or don't even wanna try. Guys that don't wanna talk don't wanna let me in... Just don't care about anything past sex, kissing, or anything thats sexually pleasing to them. I'm sick of guys that can find enough time to come see me if their gonna get something out of it, but can't seem to find enough time to sit and have a conversation past 12 minutes with me or to be able to find the time for a relationship. But its ok, I'm really happy with the changes that I have made recently in my life. Its hard, but I have stopped dating for the time being, stopped talking to the guys that I was talking to... Just gonna take time to really get to know myself and who I am. Find myself without a man.
I have always been afraid to be myself, like that if I'm by myself than I will always be alone.... Which that is a fear that I need to get over, there is more to life than having a man or trying to make a relationship happen... I'm sick of trying to force love in my life, sick of trying to find it. I'm sick of trying to find that 'can't eat, can't sleep, over the fence, world series kinda of stuff!' sick of trying to find someone that fits to me or yet someone that I fit with...
So until another day... I'm going to try and calm my anxious heart. Calm my anxious spirit. Have faith that in the end everything will be ok and turn out the way I have always dreamed it to be...
Peace out...
I'm just tired of trying to make things work with guys that aren't worth my time. Guys who don't treasure me the way I want to be and guys that I don't see myself going through the rest of my life with. I'm tired of guys that don't know how to love me, don't know how to kiss me, don't know how to play or don't even wanna try. Guys that don't wanna talk don't wanna let me in... Just don't care about anything past sex, kissing, or anything thats sexually pleasing to them. I'm sick of guys that can find enough time to come see me if their gonna get something out of it, but can't seem to find enough time to sit and have a conversation past 12 minutes with me or to be able to find the time for a relationship. But its ok, I'm really happy with the changes that I have made recently in my life. Its hard, but I have stopped dating for the time being, stopped talking to the guys that I was talking to... Just gonna take time to really get to know myself and who I am. Find myself without a man.
I have always been afraid to be myself, like that if I'm by myself than I will always be alone.... Which that is a fear that I need to get over, there is more to life than having a man or trying to make a relationship happen... I'm sick of trying to force love in my life, sick of trying to find it. I'm sick of trying to find that 'can't eat, can't sleep, over the fence, world series kinda of stuff!' sick of trying to find someone that fits to me or yet someone that I fit with...
So until another day... I'm going to try and calm my anxious heart. Calm my anxious spirit. Have faith that in the end everything will be ok and turn out the way I have always dreamed it to be...
Peace out...