fuck it.
ok. i think i've decided to drop japanese. there's a couple reasons why:
1) i'm taking 16 credits currently. this leaves me very little time to devote myself to hours in the language lab, tutoring, etc. i also have 2 jobs which takes up a lot of time.
2) there's 2 kids in my class including me. the other kid is a nerdy jewish guy who's not even in college yet. he's taking japanese at drexel as a pre-college course. he has absolutely nothing else to do this summer besides study for japanese. as a result, he kicks complete ass every single class. he makes me look like complete shit, and the teacher gets pissed at me because i'm not as good as him and she expects this. if there were other kids in my class, i'd have more of a chance.
3) it's hard to study by yourself. the kid in my class doesn't live on campus b/c he's not in FUCKING COLLEGE. i need a collaborative effort w/other kids. i'd rather have 6 kids in my class to study with.
4) japanese is hard. it's nothing like anything else i've ever learned. spanish and french at least have some english similarities. in japanese, i have nothing to go on. although this has nothing to do with why i want to drop it. i don't mind the language being hard, but i can't learn under this kind of pressure. i know it's going to make my GPA go down, and that's the last thing i need. i have the text book and the audio cd's, so i think i'll just learn on my own time at my own pace.
i feel like a wimp for not being able to stay in my own native language, but my teacher is crazy and scary and i don't think i can stand the jewish kid any longer either. i'm tired. my brain feels burnt out. it's the summer. it's nice out. i'm not supposed to be this stressed right now.
1) i'm taking 16 credits currently. this leaves me very little time to devote myself to hours in the language lab, tutoring, etc. i also have 2 jobs which takes up a lot of time.
2) there's 2 kids in my class including me. the other kid is a nerdy jewish guy who's not even in college yet. he's taking japanese at drexel as a pre-college course. he has absolutely nothing else to do this summer besides study for japanese. as a result, he kicks complete ass every single class. he makes me look like complete shit, and the teacher gets pissed at me because i'm not as good as him and she expects this. if there were other kids in my class, i'd have more of a chance.
3) it's hard to study by yourself. the kid in my class doesn't live on campus b/c he's not in FUCKING COLLEGE. i need a collaborative effort w/other kids. i'd rather have 6 kids in my class to study with.
4) japanese is hard. it's nothing like anything else i've ever learned. spanish and french at least have some english similarities. in japanese, i have nothing to go on. although this has nothing to do with why i want to drop it. i don't mind the language being hard, but i can't learn under this kind of pressure. i know it's going to make my GPA go down, and that's the last thing i need. i have the text book and the audio cd's, so i think i'll just learn on my own time at my own pace.
i feel like a wimp for not being able to stay in my own native language, but my teacher is crazy and scary and i don't think i can stand the jewish kid any longer either. i'm tired. my brain feels burnt out. it's the summer. it's nice out. i'm not supposed to be this stressed right now.