not too good...
so yeah i feel like im bipolar or sumthing..
i cant make up my fucking mind about this kid ..oh shit i mean MAN he might get pissed but yeah anyways yesterday i guess paul wall anthony mark romeo and BJ all chilled with my cuzin & danielle and i heard some shit that kinda pissed me off.. but it didnt have to do with BJ.. its just that wally and anthony are andrews like two best friends and to hear that shit...... scares the fuck outta me!!! cuz then that means andrew could be like that & i could just imagine him doing it right along with them...
i am so FUCKIN CONFUSED!!! i do like him but i no im trying to keep myself away from him..
im scared to death and i do not know why..
but i wrote him like 2 letters (finally) but i didnt send them yet
and i need to do that ASAP before i lose him for sure...
i told him im sacred and shit i basically told him eevrything..
he knows how bad BJ hurt me & i cant go thru that again..
this time im not letting no guy turn me into a fucking pussy ass bitch!!
i usually just say fuck it and fall in love with guys & i usually fall REALLY FUCKING HARD
& the one guy i cared about and loved hurt me ..i no it was my fault
but i know with ANDREW FUCKING COLBURN i am taking the biggest chance of my life..
and i kind of think its worth it hearing the things im hearing
"im told that he will NOT hurt me" so yaaaahh
i still dont even know..
and its reallly hard watching lil A and mikeEEE be together..
it makes me miss bj so DAMN MUCH for some fucked up reasonnn
i cant start going back to the bj bullshit & i need Drew here now!
uGhHhh this shit is so hard...........
lets just be glad that i am not being a hoe :)
its almost 3 months now.. i have neevr been so proud!!!!
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its 9:23 AM and i need to go over to NiCo-SiA's hOmMmE
i miss her so muchh
i cant make up my fucking mind about this kid ..oh shit i mean MAN he might get pissed but yeah anyways yesterday i guess paul wall anthony mark romeo and BJ all chilled with my cuzin & danielle and i heard some shit that kinda pissed me off.. but it didnt have to do with BJ.. its just that wally and anthony are andrews like two best friends and to hear that shit...... scares the fuck outta me!!! cuz then that means andrew could be like that & i could just imagine him doing it right along with them...
i am so FUCKIN CONFUSED!!! i do like him but i no im trying to keep myself away from him..
im scared to death and i do not know why..
but i wrote him like 2 letters (finally) but i didnt send them yet
and i need to do that ASAP before i lose him for sure...
i told him im sacred and shit i basically told him eevrything..
he knows how bad BJ hurt me & i cant go thru that again..
this time im not letting no guy turn me into a fucking pussy ass bitch!!
i usually just say fuck it and fall in love with guys & i usually fall REALLY FUCKING HARD
& the one guy i cared about and loved hurt me ..i no it was my fault
but i know with ANDREW FUCKING COLBURN i am taking the biggest chance of my life..
and i kind of think its worth it hearing the things im hearing
"im told that he will NOT hurt me" so yaaaahh
i still dont even know..
and its reallly hard watching lil A and mikeEEE be together..
it makes me miss bj so DAMN MUCH for some fucked up reasonnn
i cant start going back to the bj bullshit & i need Drew here now!
uGhHhh this shit is so hard...........
lets just be glad that i am not being a hoe :)
its almost 3 months now.. i have neevr been so proud!!!!
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its 9:23 AM and i need to go over to NiCo-SiA's hOmMmE
i miss her so muchh