This can't be happening...

Dec 20, 2006 23:14

I feel so betrayed and forgotten and thrown aside.

I posted on Myspace how excited I was about getting to spend Christmas with my family because we were moving it forward a day. Then my sister messaged me and said that they all decided that was going to be too difficult so we're just opening more presents on Christmas Eve than we usually do and I'll still have to spend Christmas alone. I pointed out to her that that won't work because I have to drive back down here in the afternoon/early evening Christmas Eve because I'll be working the next day. She said that we're just having everything really early Christmas Eve.

Then I started breaking down again. I was SO happy. I was going to spend CHRISTMAS with my family. Not just two random days and half a rushed Christmas Eve. And now it's being torn away from me yet again. By my own family. Because it'll be "too difficult". Because my sister has a show Saturday night and will be gone for a couple hours.

Oh, so Alyssa'll be gone for a couple hours on our would-be Christmas Eve, but I'll be gone ALL of Christmas day and they still plan things in her favor. Does that sound fair to you at all?

I want to have a Christmas Eve like we always do, with a big dinner, fancy dresses, Christmas carols, games, a few presents... then everyone goes home and we all go to bed and when we wake up there are presents around the tree! We try to wake mom and dad up but it's just too early for them. The waiting is agony! Then, finally, they wake up, take their time coming down stairs, have to wait for dad to get his video camera set up, and we're finally allowed to open our first present. The family comes over again and we spend the day lazily playing with our new stuff, then have an early Christmas dinner.

Having that meant the world to me. It was all I wanted for Christmas. Now it's gone.

What is wrong with people? I'm so heart-broken and upset and torn apart right now. I don't know what to do.

s is for sucks, christmas

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