Life, and the choices we make.
Do you ever wonder if you are doing what you were ment to do in life? Everyday it seems like I am just existing. There is no flare anymore or exciting pizazz that life use to hand to me. I work, I go to school, and I go to bed. I have no time anymore to do any of the things I really enjoy in life, and when there is, I just don' t have the energy to do them. Sometimes it seems like all we do is work to ensure a future of happiness. But what if the future just keeps repeating the past? All work and no time or play for real bliss? I know it is important for you to prepare for your future, but what if the future consists of being 80 years old before you can enjoy your life, and you are just too old at that time? Especially when the government is thinking about taking out our social security? Depressing thoughts.. You wanna know what I would love to do with my life? I would like to complete a Associates Degree in whatever field I want, work there for a while, and then get married and have kids. And then pursue the real career I want to have..being a full time mom. That is what I would like to do someday. Be a full time mom. Simple huh? That is what I would like to do with my life. Drive a SUV, care for my kids, make dinner for the family, take the kids to soccer practice and enjoy life as it is. I just don't see myself as becomming a career women, stiving for the closing of a huge job set in front of her, stressed from the paperwork and commute to and from work, just to retreat back to my home where I am too exhausted from the day to even partake in the simple pleasures I worked so hard for in my younger years. That is not living. Honestly, I would rather not have any money and be happy with just having kids and a family and a dog. Money holds no real value to me. Money makes your wallet complete, not your soul. I dunno, maybe I am wrong. But all I want from life is happiness, not to just exist anymore.