I'm affraid to sleep...

[sweetpea23]

During the day I can stay strong,
I can opress and feelings I still have for you,
But as soon as my head hits the pillow,
My heart takes control.

I wake up in the night,
Unable to breath,
My heart crying out to you,
I don't know what hurts more,
Being with you or with out you.

I know you probably don't want to talk,
You just want to move on and let go,
But my heart won't let go,
and I can't force it to.

I don't want to care,
But somehow I still do.
I need you to show me
How not to,
But you'll probably just crush me more.

I'm scared to come to you,
Scared you'll only turn away.
I wish I knew what you're feeling
So I'd know whether to hold on,
or to move on.

Right now I'm just so scared,
Somehow you still have my heart.
I don't know what to do,
I can't hold on,
but I can't move on.