Random day
Well today I hung out with Jo, which was cool, she is like the most random person to be friends with, but hey I wish I wasnt in the middle of that but whatever. Im done. Anyways. We got lunch and talked and yeah it was cool. I dunno I miss those days from like back in the day when me and Amanda used to just sit around drunk or not and just talk about everything....oh well. Now, its like I dunno I used to do that with Shaun now, of course when yano hes generally the topic of conversation you cant go to him about it lol. Nah hes not really anymore, I keep that shit to myself. I am off today and tomorrow and the next day. And my tummy hurts. And I dont know I just dont feel like messing with anything. I just want ot go to sleep. And sleep for a long time. I think what I miss more than anything is just being held, watching movies, I dunno. I hate this damn place. Not WKU, but PFT lol. Bullshit. I dunno I like to be around people and yeah it sucks in here. And I dunno I think about life when Im in here...when Im not Im just like out and shit and yeah. But I am so going to go. So yeah.
I saw Lyndz today!! Woot!!! And I have ideas for new tattoos.
Theres so much I want in life. I want to do good in school, I wanna be skinny again, I want to have a lot of money and get my apartment and my car, I want to have time to spend with friends, honestly, I dont even want to go back to Louisville...I mean as far as friends there, Amanda is going to UK, and I never see any of the other ones, and as far as family, well lets just say the only ones I cared about was Nay and Justin and all them, and I dunno thats just like, I dunno I feel like nobody cares whether they see anyone else or not. And yeah. I dunno if PFT didnt close I was seriously thinking about just staying here for Christmas. I dunno. Then what. Oh yeah, I dunno I played it off, and I dunno I know he doesnt want her, but there was definitely this whole ordeal with Shaun and I was like have fun and go make some fat, brownie eating, soap opera watching, bushy eyebrowed babies lol. Yeah if you dont know who Im talking about its best that way. Im happy though. I dunno I miss certain things though, but if I keep myself busy it doesnt bother me. This third shift stuff really sucks. I mean I dunno I dont sleep, I would rather go hang with people, or wake up and be mean to Shaun lol. I felt to bad about that. Basically what I did since I was tired of hearing about certain people, I was like yeah you're a whore and you're just like Stephen and fuck you and all this and I dunno. I was basically like you arent my best friend anymore and you arent who I thought you were and then I was like DAMN I am so moody, I am so tired, I am so cranky, and like usual I took it out on Shaun cause like usual hes always there. I thought about it all night and I was like I dunno I felt so bad. Cuz no matter what Shauns cool as hell and I was like ugh. And none of what I said is true, I'll be honest, I was somewhat jealous, I dunno why tho cuz yeah Im not gonna be mean but anyways. I wish everything was easy. Other than boys haha. I wish my stomach didnt hurt, I wish I had this program done, I wish I had this paper done for tomorrow, I wish a lot of things. I dunno. I talked to my Mom today, and she was happy to hear from me. I talked to my Daddy too, and yeah he traded the chevelle. Which is rather sad because I loved the chevelle, and now all he is going to do is race and tear shit up and IM like dad, you got money, but you didnt build three 4 million dollar rite aids like Charlie Bohannon...but hes like a big kid, and I dunno I guess I do stupid shit too. I realized that like nothing in my life is the same anymore either. I dunno I used to like read, I dont read anymore, I used to paint, I dont paint anymore, I used to play guitar, I dont do that anymore, I used to care about people, and now, well um, I dunno I guess I don't. I'm used to being let down and I'm used to finding out that what you had didnt matter. But apparently Im not the only person this happens too, cause yeah me and Jo had a long talk today. Anyways. I dunno, I need to write this paper. Yeah. And my tummy hurts, and I am thinking that I am going to crash early. I love you all!!
I saw Lyndz today!! Woot!!! And I have ideas for new tattoos.
Theres so much I want in life. I want to do good in school, I wanna be skinny again, I want to have a lot of money and get my apartment and my car, I want to have time to spend with friends, honestly, I dont even want to go back to Louisville...I mean as far as friends there, Amanda is going to UK, and I never see any of the other ones, and as far as family, well lets just say the only ones I cared about was Nay and Justin and all them, and I dunno thats just like, I dunno I feel like nobody cares whether they see anyone else or not. And yeah. I dunno if PFT didnt close I was seriously thinking about just staying here for Christmas. I dunno. Then what. Oh yeah, I dunno I played it off, and I dunno I know he doesnt want her, but there was definitely this whole ordeal with Shaun and I was like have fun and go make some fat, brownie eating, soap opera watching, bushy eyebrowed babies lol. Yeah if you dont know who Im talking about its best that way. Im happy though. I dunno I miss certain things though, but if I keep myself busy it doesnt bother me. This third shift stuff really sucks. I mean I dunno I dont sleep, I would rather go hang with people, or wake up and be mean to Shaun lol. I felt to bad about that. Basically what I did since I was tired of hearing about certain people, I was like yeah you're a whore and you're just like Stephen and fuck you and all this and I dunno. I was basically like you arent my best friend anymore and you arent who I thought you were and then I was like DAMN I am so moody, I am so tired, I am so cranky, and like usual I took it out on Shaun cause like usual hes always there. I thought about it all night and I was like I dunno I felt so bad. Cuz no matter what Shauns cool as hell and I was like ugh. And none of what I said is true, I'll be honest, I was somewhat jealous, I dunno why tho cuz yeah Im not gonna be mean but anyways. I wish everything was easy. Other than boys haha. I wish my stomach didnt hurt, I wish I had this program done, I wish I had this paper done for tomorrow, I wish a lot of things. I dunno. I talked to my Mom today, and she was happy to hear from me. I talked to my Daddy too, and yeah he traded the chevelle. Which is rather sad because I loved the chevelle, and now all he is going to do is race and tear shit up and IM like dad, you got money, but you didnt build three 4 million dollar rite aids like Charlie Bohannon...but hes like a big kid, and I dunno I guess I do stupid shit too. I realized that like nothing in my life is the same anymore either. I dunno I used to like read, I dont read anymore, I used to paint, I dont paint anymore, I used to play guitar, I dont do that anymore, I used to care about people, and now, well um, I dunno I guess I don't. I'm used to being let down and I'm used to finding out that what you had didnt matter. But apparently Im not the only person this happens too, cause yeah me and Jo had a long talk today. Anyways. I dunno, I need to write this paper. Yeah. And my tummy hurts, and I am thinking that I am going to crash early. I love you all!!