gimme a reason.
*sigh*
have like 20 mixed feelings right now.
first, i cannot wait to leave. i want to go on vacation, sit in the hot sun, get tan, and forget that i have an ounce of responsibility.
only, i can't help but think about all the work i should be doing or should have done to prepare to leave... it all seems endless nowdays. i can't wait for delta to be over.
on top of that, of course i know it's only a week i'm going away for.. no big deal, honestly, i know. but still, it will be different. being away, especially for adam.
i just, wish i could leave right now. i need some freedom. lots of it.
i need to feel like i have a little control back in my life...
lately, [about school], i have been feeling like... i work, yes, and manage, and usually struggle... and for what? to see that little "A" on a piece of paper that i really don't need anymore.
sometimes, i wish i were a quiter... haha.
and work. it's not "old" yet... but working is always just another wear and tear to place on the body. more demands. and yeah, i need to get used to it... i just, i'm not completly ready to be grown up. god, i forget ALL THE TIME that i turned 18.
people.... consider me an ADULT......that just blows my mind. it really does.
i guess, when i think about it, i had such a great time growing up, and being a teenager, i just am not ready for it to end. what if the next part of my life isn't as great? obvioiusly, i will see. i have never been one to not move forward... so here we go, i guess.
my eyes are tired tonight. i feel like i've been going most of the day... which is half true. just, sar, dont stay up until 2am when you have to work at 8am... kay?
my suitcase is going to be to heavy. i dont really care.
thursday and friday were great.
blah, blah, i am loving life... for the most part.
i couldn't have a better relationship if i tried,
and i am graduating in .... 1 month and 16 days.
hellz yeah.
lovelovelovethemoments.
sara rae.
have like 20 mixed feelings right now.
first, i cannot wait to leave. i want to go on vacation, sit in the hot sun, get tan, and forget that i have an ounce of responsibility.
only, i can't help but think about all the work i should be doing or should have done to prepare to leave... it all seems endless nowdays. i can't wait for delta to be over.
on top of that, of course i know it's only a week i'm going away for.. no big deal, honestly, i know. but still, it will be different. being away, especially for adam.
i just, wish i could leave right now. i need some freedom. lots of it.
i need to feel like i have a little control back in my life...
lately, [about school], i have been feeling like... i work, yes, and manage, and usually struggle... and for what? to see that little "A" on a piece of paper that i really don't need anymore.
sometimes, i wish i were a quiter... haha.
and work. it's not "old" yet... but working is always just another wear and tear to place on the body. more demands. and yeah, i need to get used to it... i just, i'm not completly ready to be grown up. god, i forget ALL THE TIME that i turned 18.
people.... consider me an ADULT......that just blows my mind. it really does.
i guess, when i think about it, i had such a great time growing up, and being a teenager, i just am not ready for it to end. what if the next part of my life isn't as great? obvioiusly, i will see. i have never been one to not move forward... so here we go, i guess.
my eyes are tired tonight. i feel like i've been going most of the day... which is half true. just, sar, dont stay up until 2am when you have to work at 8am... kay?
my suitcase is going to be to heavy. i dont really care.
thursday and friday were great.
blah, blah, i am loving life... for the most part.
i couldn't have a better relationship if i tried,
and i am graduating in .... 1 month and 16 days.
hellz yeah.
lovelovelovethemoments.
sara rae.