Oct 28, 2004 00:34
Well, well.I m in love with music, who isnt? If there is one single person in this world that doesnt like music, I personally will take care of that person and heal that person. Lol. ZINAS GONE CRAZY
Max, my new boyfriend. We ve been going out for a month now and I dont really know whether he is what I want or if he is just there to give me a good time when I m bored. Here is the story:
At first he was really cute. I saw him and woooww I wanted him. We got to know eachother slowly and then at a party (where else?!) we kinda hooked up. We started dating and I felt like oh now you ve got him how nice. I wasnt interested anymore. I always want what I cant have and when I have it I m just like: Damn this is getting boring. Now I m waiting. I like spending time with him. He is funny, he entertains me. I just dont have any kind of feelings for him. No rush, no butterflies, shit, it sucks. I dont even feel like kissing him not that he is a good kisser or something. SHIT HAPPENS ALMOST EVERY DAY. What am I to do? Maybe it ll come. Those feelings. Shouldnt they be there right from the start or do they have to develop. I ll have to wait and see.
I found out that having a tongue piercing has a positive effect on German guys. I repeat GERMAN guys. I dont know why but hey its funny. "Hey Zina, stick out your tongue to that guy" So I do and guess what: THAT GUY is there a second later and starts to hit on me.
I m sick of guys. Of guys who think they can just come up and talk to you. Guys who are so confident and think they can fuck you right away. Guys without respect.
I just want respect. I m a girl, I seem tough and yea, most of the time I am fucking tough but I m also sometimes feel hurtable, small, lost and confused. Hey, I m only a human beeing too. JUST SHOW ME SOME RESPECT, I M NOT A SEXOBJECT.
My life rocks. I know that life isnt always bad. How much love can do. Unconditional love.
Why do people have to make war? Why are people able to kill? I dont understand. Can someone explain?!
ONLY THE BEST DIE YOUNG!!!!!
FUCK BUSH FUCK WAR
LOVE & PEACE
Zeze