times is changin'
I love how i have not posted on this site in over a year. It is kind of an odd experience reading something that was written that long ago, it almost seems foreign like its not a part of me anymore. That was then, this is now.
But it shines a light on a few things, ive lost what was me,
-i dont write poetry anymore
-i dont think insightfully anymore
the two most major, ive been so worried lately that ive been living outside of the human concsiousness, ya know stepping outside the circle and looking in but ive been wrong, ive been doing exactly the opposite, living in and looking out, seeing where i used to stand on the outside and waving sadly to the other side, the place outside of the media induced pop culture crazyness...
yes i still work at albertson's, im still an actor, still a college student, and im still a christian, the latter of which i think i was much better of a year ago then i am today,
maybe i was naive, maybe i was just...who knows... i do know that im not kevin herrera anymore, or at least the kevin herrera everyone knew so long ago..
ive had a steady girlfriend (a few break ups here and there) for over a year now.
weird.
i solidified my major at CSUN (business law)
odd
i have an agency meeting tomorrow for theatrical and commercial rep as well as another meeting next week for the same thing and a v/o demo to send into another agent
ecstatic.
im back in steves class acting away, loving it.
things look good, but im still a slave to my body, one thing i think i can relate to in the post 2 down, that being a man and being a HUman i have urges but i should be able to quell them to put them in check, and i think the more i live inside this bubble of pop culture and media the more ill be a slave to it.
im a slave to eating bad foods, drinking soda, not working out, getting in debt for school (a must)
on that note, my parents do not pay for my car anymore, they do not pay for my phone anymore, they do not pay for my food anymore, or my school anymore, or my medical insurance anymore.
they let me use a room in there house, eat a little bit when im around, and pay for 85% of my car insurance. i guess it just means im growing up, but i miss thinking about the stars and loving living life and being an artist.
i can not let the business world get me down.
im running my own business, but it doesnt have to be like all the others in the world, i dont need to be famous, i need to act and love what i do,
i need to set goals:
1. acting everyday of my life in some facet
2. get my body under my control, eating wise, sexually, and fitnessly <--not a word
3. get right in Christ, in morality, just in sprituality for that matter, whatever you want to call it, the calmness of the spirit is what i need
4. read a book a month and a play a week
5. become a working actor
6. finsih college
7. land enough jobs to pay my school debt and fend for myself
8. get my braces back on and finish straightening my teeth
9. watch every movie ever made
10.finish my script
11.audition my bum off
12.save swearing and vulgarity for the stage and only to serve the playwright and the mirror thats being held up to the audience
13.stop being the funny man for my coworkers, save my talents for my friends and the people who need to see it.
14. BREATHE.
and
1. work my way out of the circle and looking up instead of back in.
im tired, and im have to teach improv to my alma mater tomorrow.
"life ain't half bad"
-kh
But it shines a light on a few things, ive lost what was me,
-i dont write poetry anymore
-i dont think insightfully anymore
the two most major, ive been so worried lately that ive been living outside of the human concsiousness, ya know stepping outside the circle and looking in but ive been wrong, ive been doing exactly the opposite, living in and looking out, seeing where i used to stand on the outside and waving sadly to the other side, the place outside of the media induced pop culture crazyness...
yes i still work at albertson's, im still an actor, still a college student, and im still a christian, the latter of which i think i was much better of a year ago then i am today,
maybe i was naive, maybe i was just...who knows... i do know that im not kevin herrera anymore, or at least the kevin herrera everyone knew so long ago..
ive had a steady girlfriend (a few break ups here and there) for over a year now.
weird.
i solidified my major at CSUN (business law)
odd
i have an agency meeting tomorrow for theatrical and commercial rep as well as another meeting next week for the same thing and a v/o demo to send into another agent
ecstatic.
im back in steves class acting away, loving it.
things look good, but im still a slave to my body, one thing i think i can relate to in the post 2 down, that being a man and being a HUman i have urges but i should be able to quell them to put them in check, and i think the more i live inside this bubble of pop culture and media the more ill be a slave to it.
im a slave to eating bad foods, drinking soda, not working out, getting in debt for school (a must)
on that note, my parents do not pay for my car anymore, they do not pay for my phone anymore, they do not pay for my food anymore, or my school anymore, or my medical insurance anymore.
they let me use a room in there house, eat a little bit when im around, and pay for 85% of my car insurance. i guess it just means im growing up, but i miss thinking about the stars and loving living life and being an artist.
i can not let the business world get me down.
im running my own business, but it doesnt have to be like all the others in the world, i dont need to be famous, i need to act and love what i do,
i need to set goals:
1. acting everyday of my life in some facet
2. get my body under my control, eating wise, sexually, and fitnessly <--not a word
3. get right in Christ, in morality, just in sprituality for that matter, whatever you want to call it, the calmness of the spirit is what i need
4. read a book a month and a play a week
5. become a working actor
6. finsih college
7. land enough jobs to pay my school debt and fend for myself
8. get my braces back on and finish straightening my teeth
9. watch every movie ever made
10.finish my script
11.audition my bum off
12.save swearing and vulgarity for the stage and only to serve the playwright and the mirror thats being held up to the audience
13.stop being the funny man for my coworkers, save my talents for my friends and the people who need to see it.
14. BREATHE.
and
1. work my way out of the circle and looking up instead of back in.
im tired, and im have to teach improv to my alma mater tomorrow.
"life ain't half bad"
-kh