updating-ness!
geez life flies by so quickly! This year is almost over (well, in another 5 weeks or so)...it seems like it just started. I feel like such a different person from last year! I look back at some of my notes and even these journal entries and i feel like i'm about a century older now. crazy.
The reason i havent been updating is because i've been keeping a real journal (not that this one is fake, only my real one is actually on paper and includes my blood, sweat and tears, so to speak.
The only problem about internet journals is misinterpretation, which can be quite a biggie. I look back at my journals and there's no way to really tell what i was thinking, even though i was trying to describe it. Ya know, that list of feelings is so short! and just one never fits what i want to express.....
Another problem is handwriting... I dont know if anyone else does this, but when my moods change, my handwriting changes with them. (Which is why my AP notes are so psycho-looking). And in my written journal, i can go back and look at my handwriting and tell exactly what i was feeling when i wrote it, which is extrordinarily cool when you actually do it.
Like i was looking at my essays in my graded work folder from AP over spring break, and on my first inclass FRE I could totally read the nervousness in my handwriting. I hope i dont do that on the AP Test... oh gosh it's so close! I dont know if i'm sad about this year being over or what. It's like i'm ready for it to end, but not everything that was supposed to happen yet did. hmm.
Tonight i went to see the student production. It was really quite entertaing- They say you burn 3 calories every time you really laugh- i think i burned all of my meals for the day in that 60 minutes. David and Joanna were there too. I wonder what's up with them...(other than the fact that they were there together). Oh well, it's not really my concern I guess.
The most important thing is to be happy i guess. which, when it all comes down to it, i am happy. not all of the time.. but generally, I am, and that makes me feel so... i dont know... lucky. yes.. lucky.
Lately, things just seem to be working out for me.. almost too much, ya know? But nothing is really changing, and i dont know if that's a good or bad thing.
Just watch, all of a sudden summer is going to hit and everything's going to change.. especially people.
It's so weird to think that next year i will be a junior. I believe i'm still a freshman at heart, which is odd but quite true. part of me doesnt want to grow up, yet i cant wait to get a license and a car, and some kind of freedom.
Okay, this is all for tonight, and i'm so grateful to have this "type journal" to let everything out on when i dont feel like handwriting 15ish pages.
I'm going to listen to James Taylor for a little while...mmmm...
*smooches*
Jacque
The reason i havent been updating is because i've been keeping a real journal (not that this one is fake, only my real one is actually on paper and includes my blood, sweat and tears, so to speak.
The only problem about internet journals is misinterpretation, which can be quite a biggie. I look back at my journals and there's no way to really tell what i was thinking, even though i was trying to describe it. Ya know, that list of feelings is so short! and just one never fits what i want to express.....
Another problem is handwriting... I dont know if anyone else does this, but when my moods change, my handwriting changes with them. (Which is why my AP notes are so psycho-looking). And in my written journal, i can go back and look at my handwriting and tell exactly what i was feeling when i wrote it, which is extrordinarily cool when you actually do it.
Like i was looking at my essays in my graded work folder from AP over spring break, and on my first inclass FRE I could totally read the nervousness in my handwriting. I hope i dont do that on the AP Test... oh gosh it's so close! I dont know if i'm sad about this year being over or what. It's like i'm ready for it to end, but not everything that was supposed to happen yet did. hmm.
Tonight i went to see the student production. It was really quite entertaing- They say you burn 3 calories every time you really laugh- i think i burned all of my meals for the day in that 60 minutes. David and Joanna were there too. I wonder what's up with them...(other than the fact that they were there together). Oh well, it's not really my concern I guess.
The most important thing is to be happy i guess. which, when it all comes down to it, i am happy. not all of the time.. but generally, I am, and that makes me feel so... i dont know... lucky. yes.. lucky.
Lately, things just seem to be working out for me.. almost too much, ya know? But nothing is really changing, and i dont know if that's a good or bad thing.
Just watch, all of a sudden summer is going to hit and everything's going to change.. especially people.
It's so weird to think that next year i will be a junior. I believe i'm still a freshman at heart, which is odd but quite true. part of me doesnt want to grow up, yet i cant wait to get a license and a car, and some kind of freedom.
Okay, this is all for tonight, and i'm so grateful to have this "type journal" to let everything out on when i dont feel like handwriting 15ish pages.
I'm going to listen to James Taylor for a little while...mmmm...
*smooches*
Jacque