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[sweetnovocaine7]

why am i so good beyond belief then depressed horribly lately?
i went the entire day with my head held high,
as if i had found my purpose of this day..
but with one hint of reality, everything is gone.
why must this dismantle me so much? ive never been this broken over someone before..

i can feel the excitement brewing from within and i think im ready for chirstmas finally.
for awhile i had hoped christmas would never come.
what good is there this year?
but ive found the secret, ive found the happiness, ive found my gift: giving.

i feel smothered, i feel trapped, i feel lost, i feel confused, i feel weird.