long but important
so im home from camp, if i feel up to it i'll post an entry about that later but right now im not feelin it.
im gonna start this off by describing my last 2 offnights...
i was laying on the bridge ( for those of you that have never been to camp the bride goes across the falls of kellys creek,& due to the rain the falls were the most incredible i had ever seen/heard them. )just listening to the crashing of the falls and gazing at the stars.
as i was laying there i thought. i thought about my past relationships and my future relationships. im not in one now so i couldnt think about that. i just felt this overwhelming sense that there was something, or someone...out there...calling me. it wasnt God because i've felt that call before. it was like God telling me and this other person that we needed each other. i've felt it since i've been home. unfortunately, my brother has had my car most of the time and when i have had my car ive had no where to go. but i KNOW theres someone out there. i can't describe it.
Also. i thought about what had gone in past relationships. i always settle for whatever guy wants me. im not doing that anymore. last night i made my list of my perfection. my perfect guy. i know if sounds stupid but if he doesnt do it for me i cant do it for him.
//in no order//
+really listens, doesn't just pretend to
+is passionate about what he does
+christian (preferably catholic)
+respects women
+not a heavy drinker or drug user
+knows when to have fun and when to be serious
+will comfort me
+gets along with my family/meets their approval
+pays for me most of the time but lets me pay sometimes
+easy to carry on a good conversation with
+silence is comfortable
+opens doors
+stops teasing/making fun of me when i say stop
+romantic surprises
+respects my love for camp & friends
+remembers important dates
+makes time for me
+loves music (all music, not a music snob)
+confident and happy with who he is
+pushes me to be a better person
+my best friend
+spontaneous
+plays guitar (don't ask, but its a must)
+get along well w/animals and children
+support me in everything i do
+okay with me chillin w/guy friends
+makes sure i spend time w/my girls
+likes dancing/good dancer
+loves being outside
+compliments me
+respects space when i need it
+holds me
+picnics/walks
+well educated, good direction
+loves me for me
+doesnt push me to do somethin i dont want to do
+attractive
I know its long, and i'm asking too much and a guy like that probably doesnt exist. but i know he does. i know he's out there.
im gonna start this off by describing my last 2 offnights...
i was laying on the bridge ( for those of you that have never been to camp the bride goes across the falls of kellys creek,& due to the rain the falls were the most incredible i had ever seen/heard them. )just listening to the crashing of the falls and gazing at the stars.
as i was laying there i thought. i thought about my past relationships and my future relationships. im not in one now so i couldnt think about that. i just felt this overwhelming sense that there was something, or someone...out there...calling me. it wasnt God because i've felt that call before. it was like God telling me and this other person that we needed each other. i've felt it since i've been home. unfortunately, my brother has had my car most of the time and when i have had my car ive had no where to go. but i KNOW theres someone out there. i can't describe it.
Also. i thought about what had gone in past relationships. i always settle for whatever guy wants me. im not doing that anymore. last night i made my list of my perfection. my perfect guy. i know if sounds stupid but if he doesnt do it for me i cant do it for him.
//in no order//
+really listens, doesn't just pretend to
+is passionate about what he does
+christian (preferably catholic)
+respects women
+not a heavy drinker or drug user
+knows when to have fun and when to be serious
+will comfort me
+gets along with my family/meets their approval
+pays for me most of the time but lets me pay sometimes
+easy to carry on a good conversation with
+silence is comfortable
+opens doors
+stops teasing/making fun of me when i say stop
+romantic surprises
+respects my love for camp & friends
+remembers important dates
+makes time for me
+loves music (all music, not a music snob)
+confident and happy with who he is
+pushes me to be a better person
+my best friend
+spontaneous
+plays guitar (don't ask, but its a must)
+get along well w/animals and children
+support me in everything i do
+okay with me chillin w/guy friends
+makes sure i spend time w/my girls
+likes dancing/good dancer
+loves being outside
+compliments me
+respects space when i need it
+holds me
+picnics/walks
+well educated, good direction
+loves me for me
+doesnt push me to do somethin i dont want to do
+attractive
I know its long, and i'm asking too much and a guy like that probably doesnt exist. but i know he does. i know he's out there.