im stuck between
wanting this perfect little dream life, of keeping this great boy things being even more great after 9 months, then flying off to spain and enjoying my number one goal of traveling with him
OR
doing an IA billet after this and getting sent to Kuwait or who knows where, just to fulfill this void of adrenaline i can't seem to brush off.
He has it a little easier, he can actually go off and do what he wants, and ill be here waiting while hes out there fighting for something. Something most of us here don't even understand but all we want is to be part of something bigger than ourselves. And to actually make it through, and so years from now we can say WE were there. WE were the ones who stood there against those who never believed, against even those at home who don't believe what we are doing is right. BELIEVE me when i say that i see no real excuse to why we are where we are, but someone has to go out there and do it.
I ate a fortune cookie the other day, my fortune said "you will pass on happy, of old age"
GOD what a fortune right!
but then i thought, would i be okay with that?
I see these movies or commercials, or better yet read real stories of those who have perished in combat and i salute them, even those at home who don't agree with the war can't help but render respect to those fallen soldiers. Because if you really knew it, more than 48% of the solders out there are between 18-24. Just like you an I. I want to pass on and be remembered as someone who was brave and actually did something in her life.
But i think being a woman is a huge downfall, because unlike men who can choose to go to war knowing that their kids are at home, as a woman right now i can choose to go out there, but sacrificing time to make a family. Im only 19 goddammit, i think the military life is the main reason one feels like their in such a hurry to pick and choose these things.
When in reality if i was still a normal person these ideas would be so far fetched.
OR
doing an IA billet after this and getting sent to Kuwait or who knows where, just to fulfill this void of adrenaline i can't seem to brush off.
He has it a little easier, he can actually go off and do what he wants, and ill be here waiting while hes out there fighting for something. Something most of us here don't even understand but all we want is to be part of something bigger than ourselves. And to actually make it through, and so years from now we can say WE were there. WE were the ones who stood there against those who never believed, against even those at home who don't believe what we are doing is right. BELIEVE me when i say that i see no real excuse to why we are where we are, but someone has to go out there and do it.
I ate a fortune cookie the other day, my fortune said "you will pass on happy, of old age"
GOD what a fortune right!
but then i thought, would i be okay with that?
I see these movies or commercials, or better yet read real stories of those who have perished in combat and i salute them, even those at home who don't agree with the war can't help but render respect to those fallen soldiers. Because if you really knew it, more than 48% of the solders out there are between 18-24. Just like you an I. I want to pass on and be remembered as someone who was brave and actually did something in her life.
But i think being a woman is a huge downfall, because unlike men who can choose to go to war knowing that their kids are at home, as a woman right now i can choose to go out there, but sacrificing time to make a family. Im only 19 goddammit, i think the military life is the main reason one feels like their in such a hurry to pick and choose these things.
When in reality if i was still a normal person these ideas would be so far fetched.