One last time
Nick tried to say hi to me and I ignored him. I completely ignored his existence. I have to do this. Pretend like he doesn't exist. I'm not being cruel, it's just sometimes you have to sacrifice people in your life in order to be happy. I love Luis and in order for our happiness to exist i have to opt out Nick. Nick and I, well we just can not see each other at all in no matter form. There was a time where he did listen to me and was a good friend. But he tried to be too involved with me and i couldn't let that happen. He also didn't want to let it happen. I can not say hi to him plainly just because i don't want to. I hate to have a lost a friend to stupid irresponsible decisions made. But we both have lives of our own and can not involve each other in it. I'm sadden by this because i chose a boyfriend over a friend. I love Luis so much, so i had to. It's best we are not for Nick's sake and mine. I just felt bad for not saying hi. And he tried several times to get a hi out of me. I just couldn't put myself in that position that after all that happened between us, it's ok for us to say hi to each other.
I wish i could have told this to not have felt so guilty but no. I'm closing this issue and burying it. It's best if it was left alone. I just thought i could just say what i felt for one last time.
I'm sorry Nick.