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yesterday was kinda shiity. i planned on going out for the basketball team, but i cant cuz i have to get another physical &the last one i got was in january. and its something weird with my insurece that they will only pay for one physical a year. other wise my mom has to pay out of her pocket $130. and right now she doesnt have the money. she is alwasy telling me to get my ass out there and do sum sport, & then when i do i cant even do it. well i understood about the whole money situation. so i was like okay alright you know. well then last night she comes in my room and im like so is it yes or no and shes BLOWS off on me. and i wasnt even fucking yelling at her. shes like i dont have the money blah blah blah then i didnt say anything and then out of fucking no where she goes since your life is soo fucking horrible go live with your real dad. then she left my room. i dont think she knows how fuckng bad that hurt me, like she wanted to disown me right there. then i called chris and told him everyting. then my dad came in my room and asked if i wanted to talk & i told him sure. hes like well wuts going on and i told him. i was like you know i work my ass off in skool and i dont do drugs. im like my never tells me when she is proud of me and she is always on my ass about everything. then me and my dad talked for a while longer and he told me he was proud of me and that ment sooo mcuh to me. after he left my room he went and talked to my mom and then she started cryen and yelling at him, since he was sticking up for me and they got into this huge fight. then she went into her room and that was that. okay then this morning she didnt say a word to me just took me to rens and that was it. when i came home from skool today shes like we need to talk. " you never tell me whats going on in ur life" its like wut do you expect whenever i tell you shiit you find a way to use it against me and shes goes becca you still get me mad, cuz of like the shiit that happend over the summer when i ran away. well yeah. my mom said we have issues that we need to fix, yeah well they just dont get fixed like that. idk just soo much fucking drama with my family right now. im soo sick of it and i wish she would open her fuckig eyes and see why i ran away over the summer, its cuz of this bullshit it was the same shiit i was going thro. idk. w.e