I frustrate you...you frustrate me. Face it, we love each other.
So I got to talk to him today. At first you could cut the tension with a knife but then i told him there was a lot of stuff I wanted to say to him but I was afraid he'd get pissed and he doesn't need that right now but he told me to say whatever was on my mind. I did and it turned out to not be so bad. I told him he needs to come home, the answer is not in staying there. He wants me to hate him because he thinks its impossible for me to truely hate anyone and he might be right but he got a good laugh out of it. I swear we had the best convo today that we've possibly ever had. I thought we were making so much progress but apparently not because he said "damn woman you're doing it again, making me all soft and cooshy, I have to go before this happens again, talk to you later." At least I know I still get to him. All I have to do is make him realize he can't push this away. Eh hopefully he'll come to his senses soon.