And there's just something about him...
I swear he manages to make me fall in love with him more and more every day. We have the weirdest, funniest and most amazing conversations that I wouldn't give up for the world. Just to hear his voice does something to me and I haven't quite figured out what it is yet. And I am so not letting him name our son Lokie. I can't believe he's already thought about our kids names, how many we'll have and everything like that. I'm glad I could talk him into wanting a girl and a boy insted of just 2 boys which would make a total of 3 boys. I need a girl in the mix with the pigtails and frilly dresses and teacher her how to beat up her brothers. We only want a total of 3 maybe just maybe 4. And the older Preston gets, the more I miss being pregnant and the more I miss having a baby baby around. I can't believe he said we'll start working on our next one when he comes home and we get settled at Ft. Bliss. And then the whole telling me I'm more beautiful than anything god has ever created thing, in french none the less; if he didn't have my heart before he definately has it now. I just wish he'd quit worrying about us so much. He say he worries about us because sometimes he needs to take his mind off what going on there and think about something good for a change which I understand but he really doesn't need to be worrying about us. And here comes the financial difficulties thing, I don't want his money. He knows we need it because of me having to quit my job and the car breaking down but I refuse to take it especially if my mother knows about it because look what happened last time. She thinks just because he sends us some money that it's hers because we still live with her so she takes it all and I have no say in the matter. It's total load of bullshit, one of the biggest ones I've ever seen by far. He sent Preston and I $1500 and she had it spent in a little over 3 weeks and $500 was not accounted for; there was no way in hell we were behind $1000 with the bills because our monthly bills don't even equal 1000 so I know something is up there. Of course I didn't tell him that part and the funny thing is my sisters know exactly how my mom is so even they told me to hide it from her and not give it to her when she says she's gonna send the bills out because 9 times out of 10 she hides the money and doesn't even send it out. I just can't wait for him to get home and we can move down there until we're ready for Ft. Lewis and we'll have our own place,.We'll have our own family, cars, our own home, everything. The more I stay here with her the more it's driving me litterally insane. I know you're probably thinking well all parents are like that or I'm sounding like a bitch but she is why my sisters left home at 15 and never came back no matter what it took. I talk to them and they agree with me because they know how she is, they had her for 6 and 4 years longer than I have so they know. I'll be 20 in a few months and she still treats me like I'm 10. I don't have a say in how my son is raised and when I do she throws a huuuuge fit. If I tell her I don't want Pre sto have chocolate, pop or candy she turns around and gives it to him anyway and when I confront her about it she says she's his grandma and she has the right to do everything I tell her not to reguarding him. I swear she's gone bonkers. Anyway off the ranting and raving about my psychotic mother...
I'm just glad I got a second chance with Marty. Ohhh ohh the ultimatum...so he gave me an ultimatum yesterday, either let him help out now or when we get our house then I'm not paying for anything for the rest of my life. I'm not sure what I should do. I have major pride issues and I don't like asking anyone for help or even if they offer; I don't want his money, I could definately use it but I refuse to take it. He works too hard for it and I know he loves me and cares about me but still. His reasoning is that he should be able to spend his money on whatever he wants and if it's us then I should let him. I mean with me not being able to work at the moment, we definately need it but I just don't want my mom to find out about it and fight with me over it. I'm not sure if I should take it or try to get by without it. Any opinions? Well enough of my going on and on about having one of the most amazing boyfriends ever. I need some food, haven't ate a thing all day and of course my period magicly appeared today so I have massive cramps. Hmm maybe that's why I've been overly emotional lately yeah that would do it. Ok goodbye.
I'm just glad I got a second chance with Marty. Ohhh ohh the ultimatum...so he gave me an ultimatum yesterday, either let him help out now or when we get our house then I'm not paying for anything for the rest of my life. I'm not sure what I should do. I have major pride issues and I don't like asking anyone for help or even if they offer; I don't want his money, I could definately use it but I refuse to take it. He works too hard for it and I know he loves me and cares about me but still. His reasoning is that he should be able to spend his money on whatever he wants and if it's us then I should let him. I mean with me not being able to work at the moment, we definately need it but I just don't want my mom to find out about it and fight with me over it. I'm not sure if I should take it or try to get by without it. Any opinions? Well enough of my going on and on about having one of the most amazing boyfriends ever. I need some food, haven't ate a thing all day and of course my period magicly appeared today so I have massive cramps. Hmm maybe that's why I've been overly emotional lately yeah that would do it. Ok goodbye.