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how can she do this? how can she hold him against me? after all i've done for her and him??? I love that child like he is my own and i have taken care of him just as he was and now because shes going thru withdraws from the vicoden and wants to be a bitch because i couldnt answer her right away.she wants me to have nothing to do with him. fuck that!!! thats what i have to say FUCK THAT!!! i will have something to do with him, its her he should have nothing to do with. she doesnt want him, she was just like my parents when i was his age, fighting over me for money and being the better parent, who ever had the kid was the better parent. she wont even take him to her bf's house of which she lives so she lies to him and brings jake over here instead. i, I took him over MY bf's and he's not even my son and she cant even do that. what is wrong with her????!?!? oh and then our family is shit, mom's shit, i'm shit, amber's shit we're all shit!!! how the fuck can she say that, i have given up every weekend of my life since he was born to take him and help raise him cuz i know both his parents are seriously fucked. mom and i tried the best we could to help give him a stable home environment cuz thats what the most important thing a child needs, that and love and we gave him both, provided for him when she couldnt or didnt want to and this is what she does, she uses him against us? i hope for the life of me that when that child gets older he'll hate her and mike for putting him thru this. i hated my parents for the longest time for the bullshit they pulled and how it fucked me up and shes gonna turn around and do it to her child. i hope that bitch gets what she deserves. yeah we were the closest growing up and thats why its killing me just remebering how close we were but god shes changed so much, yeah we all change over time but shes not herself, shes turned into a selfish self-destructive vengeful hateful spiteful bitch on wheels. and i really cant believe shes doing this to mom. mom most of all doesnt need this shit, shes dying and so sick. jesus christ, she just went to the hospital friday and had to have an mri done and the front left quarter of her brain is damaged from all these fucking diseases she has, she not going to live much longer and annie is just making it so much worse!!!!!!!! i hate her god i hate her and i will never forgive her and i hope she feels sooooo bad for what shes done. i just pray with all my heart that mom hangs in there for a lot longer than i'm thinking, theres absolutely nothing the doctors can do about this and theres nothing they can give her for the auto immune or else it'll blow out her kidneys and she'll die. at most she'll have 10 years left from now. shit, i'll only be 27 maybe 28. i wont even be fucking 30 yet. you really think it'll never happen to you but it does and its so much worse. ok i have to go, i dont wanna be here. i need to go hang out with my firends or something cuz sitting here thinking about things and giving myself a headache from hystericaly crying isnt doing much good. bye