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my happiness that i once had, has gone down the fucking drain!it's out the window and down the street... i knew it was to good to be true...i am finally happy for once, but then everything gets fucked up and i go back to being so sad all the time! i can't take it anymore!! for so many reasons!! i dont want margaret or craig to leave at all!! i am sooo upset that margaret is leaving! i dont want her to leave! :'(
i dont want craig to go either...this year so far with the exception of a few things...SUCKED!!! i hate how everything finally works out for you and then that happiness that comes with it just dissapears! i dont exist! my happiness doesnt exist!! i wonder if its just a phase im going through...i hope so cause i hate feeling this way!! it sucks on so many levels!!
I DONT WANT MARGARET TO LEAVE!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOO....... SHE CAN'T!!!! :'(
:'( ...
he doesnt even like notice me!! but i was told that he had a hard day today so i can't complain...i like him a lot!!
but thats not why i am upset... i just wish we could live forever!! i am so afraid of dying... i know this might be odd...and i know i shouldnt talk about it but i am afraid of dying...i dont want to die! it makes me feel all weird inside just thinking about the subject...i get so scared and my stomach like drops to my feet... :'(
well i thank all of you guys who read this for listening to me complain... i hope i will be happy again soon... there is a certain someone who makes me extremly happy at times and i thank that person...mostly all of my friends are there for me too and i thank you guys too...i'm starting to feel a little better cause i got that all out...but i still dont want them to leave!!!