Once again
Once again I can sit in front of my computer and talk about someone that's made an impression on me. Not the guy I went out with on Saturday, someone totally different. Someone that Matt could never ever compare to. Someone that is one of the most amazing musicians I have ever met. Someone that looked straight into my eyes, saw my soul, saw my thoughts, and didn't take off running. Someone that could sing to me all night long. Someone that inspires me. Someone that connects with me on a level that NO ONE else ever has. Someone that would dance with me in the rain. Someone that simply loves to lay next to me. Someone that bites his lip when I make him think. Someone that finds me totally adorable and would rather be laying next to me when we talk rather than only have to listen to my voice. He used the word beautiful not because I wanted to hear it, but because he meant it. He would brush my hair from my face and pull me as close to him as he could. Kiss me on the cheek and slowly carress me in the small of my back. Kiss me on the neck and whisper in my ear. Come up behind me when I'm playing piano and begin playing with me having a hand on either side of me, leaning in as close as he can. Telling me to go home because he doesn't want me to get in trouble but knows he doesn't want to let me leave. Someone that asks when he can see me again and knows we'll both be counting down the minutes. Reads all my poetry, songs, and sees all my drawings and wants to know what inspired me to do so. Longs to understand every aspect of me. Someone that makes me laugh all night and day. Someone that told me I wear the cutest smiles. He just held my hand. A person that admitted to caring about me for some weird reason. Someone that talked to his intire family about me and told them everything he loved about me. Calls a dork and its not a bad thing when he says it. He's the only one that can get away with it. He loves that I'm a dork. Laid me down gently. He was always gentle. So loving, so tender, so sweet. Talks about how amazing my eyes are. Called them mesmerizing. Told me that he loved my lips and he'd be lying if he said he didn't want to kiss them from the moment he saw me. Explained to me how interested he was from the beginning but how cautious he was. I could go on for hours. Or I could at least go on until he calls me. But I'm worried. I left him in a frenzy becuase he was on his way to an emergency. I just pray that he's gonna be okay. I don't know what I would do if tragedy struck me again. I miss him and I just saw him less than an hour ago. I don't want to say I'm totally fallin' but I have completely collapsed at his feet. I wouldn't fall unless I knew he would be the one to catch me. He would look at me and I'd always ask him what he was thinking. Finally he said, "Why do I have to be thinking? Can't I just be admiring?" Of course I had to ask, "Admiring what?" He simply said, "You."