-*4:15 AM... Whats Better To Do Than... Update My Journal?! (:*-
-Hey ya'll. So my last entry was late on last Monday morning. This ones late on the following Wednesday's morning, so no sane person is awake... Just me + Dan lol. I suppose I can actually make this a normal format. Alritey + here we go...
School (more like my "Boring Life as a Sick Girl" section): Well last week I didnt go to school + this week I havent at all either. Ive been sick with some virus that makes my stomach hurt a lot + I always feel REALLY tired. Ugh it sucks. So last Monday I slept for about 18 hours of my day. I missed a meeting w/Becca but she says its probably better that I wasnt there since they got in a fight w/some lady who I didnt really like lol. Tuesday I slept a lot too, then I didnt go to Leaders cuz I still wasnt feeling too well, my mom wouldnt let me, + it started to snow + it got REALLY icy. Wednesday I dont remember what I did. Oh wait ya I do. I went to the doctors + they took some blood so they can test for Mono + other stuff like that that I might have. Ugh Ive already gone thru this once. But nope... They found nothing. Jesus wtf is wrong w/me?! Thursday I woke up around 1 + "sneaked" (ya thats the proper grammar as opposed to "snuck" lol... even if it sounds weird) on the computer since I know the password + my family doesnt know that I know it haha. yesssssa! K on Friday I stayed home... Again + sat around. Youd think I was the biggest fatass but I dont think I gained any weight, which is really good. Im just SO fuckin lazy its insane + I hate that Im not motivated about like anything, besides my friends + Leaders. Otherwise I have no life. Ugh that sucks. So about school?... Ya... I got nothin. Anyways now Im here. Yes... a very boring section I know. Thats why Im moving on.....
Work: Well I worked last (as in not this past) Saturday + Sunday, but work that weekend absolutely SUCKED! Steve decided to have the showroom people share the Chuckie duties. I think its cuz Mari said she'd quit if she was forced to be Chuckie for a whole shift again. So he decided that each weekend a different person would be assigned to Chuckie. So that was MY weekend, which meant 16 hours of my weekend spent being in a fuckin mouse costume (Ok not truly 16 hours. Probably more like a total of... 4 hours. But hey it still completely shits the bed! <---haha I love that phrase) Well I didnt know this on Saturday so I was fuckin pissed + I thought they were trying to demote me to playing the fuckin mouse forever. So I was pissed + I was SO thrilled to get the fuck outta there on Saturday. (Sorry for the "fuck" usage... but I was REALLY pissed haha) So then Sunday, I asked my manager Nicole about it + she told me the scenario, so then I was happier after that. They sent me home like 1½ hours early on Sunday, too, which I DEFINITELY didnt complain about haha. Just more time for me to nap at home. Then this weekend I worked 2-10pm on Saturday. That was alrite. I did like 3 parties + talked to people. Heh Me + Curt are supposed to get together to chill once he gets his license. However Curts a HUGE flirt as it is, so who knows if he was kiddin? Meh whatever. Sam was being bossy as usual, but I dont really care cuz thats how she is + I give her attitude anyways. lol Oh + apparently Mari quit... again. Whatever. My after-work story? Ill tell ya about that in a different section. I was supposed to work 9am-1pm on Sunday too, but they called + said I didnt havta. I was only doing Kid Check anyways + I FUCKIN HATE Kid Check hehe, so that was ok. Meh, not too bad I dont think. Continuing on...
Friends: Well I havent really seen people here much since Ive been outta school but otherwise I think everyones doing good. Adam got his old job back at Triboro Paint Center + hes starting at the end of the month + quittin Shaws I think. Me + him? Well we're having our differences + I still wanna be just friends. + I found out some things about him + that REALLY secured my decision. Sooo good luck to that... if that lasts. :-\ Anyways, I saw Dan + Ricky 2 weekends ago + we had a GRRRREAT time lol (You had to be there haha). We ate at Friendlys + just drove around a lot. Craigs fine... Im still rootin for him but I think thats over with. I still luv him to death though. Erics good. We talk on the phone like every night till CRAZY hours in the morning + thats always really enjoyable. Me + Eric can talk about practically everything + its never weird. God I love that boy. Who else?... Kealer + Sisum are fine I think. My AHS girls? I was supposed to see them last weekend but that kinda fell thru. Idk but I miss them. They havta stick together w/each other to deal w/Shirman this week. That is DEF. something I dont miss since I ve been sick.
Leaders: Well we had Leaders tonight. It was really good. Sure the younger boys are immature + hit each other, but at least they dont act up when its only me + them so I love them still. We got our paperwork for the Westfield overnight. Sadly its only for Mass. but those out-of-Mass. people that mean the most? We'll getcha there (yes thats you Erin lol). Im excited, yet shaky about it, but more excited cuz I dont let drama like that to get me down. ;-) Anyways, we also talked about our Battle of the Bands thing more in depth too. Ill put this in bold for anyone thats interested... For those bands that wish to do this, put on your calendars, Saturday, May 21st from 12-5pm at Mason Field in North Attleboro (The date + time is shaky but thats what we're looking at). There will be a Battle of the Bands for anyone interested in signing up. If you would like to, you need a demo tape by near March 29th. It must be appropriate (aka NO PROFANITY! lol) + it should be near ½ hour long. My advisor will lsiten to the tapes + pick 7-8 bands to be in the competition. Prize = $100-$200 (not decided yet) to split among your band. If you are interested, email me at Luky8missy@aol.com or IM me at SweetChick013088. Good luck to those who enter! Ok there ya go. Ill repeat that whole thing at the end of my entry too, for those who dont read the whole entry + merely scroll to the bottom lol. Ok now the rest of the meeting? Well we had a really nice Values tonight. Practically everyone was quiet + serious + I loved it. We listened to a Leaders song + answered who it reminded us of, what that person brings to our lives, what you would tell that person if we were never to see him/her again, + what is holding us back from telling this person. We listened to "You've Got A Friend" by James Taylor. God I love that song. And I wanna share mine. I chose Erin, yes Erin Nickerson. I chose Erin because first of all, the song is a Leaders song, so I thought of Leaders. But thats not even close to it. Erin, despite living 45 minutes + another state away, I believe, is one of my best friends that Ive had in my life so far. What she brings to my life is that she always makes me happy, even if theres TONS of drama to deal w/or we're just talking about our days. A phone call from Erin means the world to me + could probably last for 10 hours if we let it. She has made me truly think about important things in life, especially judging people. From her, I learned to not judge people until you TRULY know them + to give everyone 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th + even 5th impressions. Shes amazing. What I hadnt told Erin at the time was that I felt she was probably one of my best friends in my life + that she had taught me so much. If I was never to see her again, I would miss her unbelievably + I would NEVER forget her. Why hadnt I told her that? Because I was afraid that back in RI, she would have a better friend than me + that maybe she would forget about me. Well Becca reminded us at the end of the evening that these special people need to be acknowledged + know how much they mean to us. So what did I do? I sent Erin a text message if she wanted to call me + of course she did. And I told her how I felt + what she meant to me. lol She loves me too. But to Erin, my darling. Thats what you are to me +I love you. Muah! Oh + to end that Leaders night, I got my hott hott sweatpants. Ya theyre gray + have Hockomock down 1 leg + the Leaders logo on the other + the lettering is orange w/a blue outline. Yup they match our sweatshirts + theyre EXTREMELY hott. haha Ok now people in Leaders? Well Kellis grrrreat. I havent seen her since the Y Dance night where we talked to Fed on the phone till like 1 AM lol. But shes doing her CNA Clinicals + Im so proud of her. Im jealous cuz shes so motivated + busy + shit. My life used to be busy, but its not anymore. Thats why Im SO looking forward to lacrosse so I have stuff to do. Yessssa! Anyways, I asked Britt tonight if any of the North guys still need prom dates. Ok so I might be desperate but I WANNA GO THE NORTH JR. PROM! Any Jr. North guys who need a date? Comment or email/IM me. Yes... Im desperate. Ill repeat that request at the bottom of my entry too. Ok back on the topic of Leaders. Everyone else seems to be ok. Me + Woody argued about whos the best in the Amazing Race. That would be Rob + Amber DUH! Robs a fuckin genius when it comes to working w/people + hes hott + I love him haha. Anyways, Becca tried to have her "talk" w/me about how I misbehave at rallies + how its in question if Ill get to go to Spring Rally since Im so horrible. The thing that she doesnt realize is no one else would think Im a troublemaker, besides her, Katie + Jenny from Lowell. Cuz Betsy + Nicole... They love me. + Steve + other guy advisors? They love me too (I think). I believe it allll depends on the type of person + how strict they are. So I tried to have her see things my way + she tried to have me see things her way + I do, to an extent. I mean I see it after the fact, not during, which I guess is my problem. I guess I just dont take her seriously enough. + if I cant go to Spring Rally, I will TRULY throw a temper tantrum + roll on the floor screaming + kicking my arms + legs until I can go. Idk if that would work but... Its worth a shot haha. Anyways who else? Well lets see. I talked to Lisa regarding us chilling before the overnight. Since shes insanely busy w/college stuff, I figured Id just see her at the overnight, but she invited me to come w/her to see Quinnipiac! I really should go, just to get used to seeing colleges + stuff + of COURSE to be w/my lovely Lisapuff! Ah I love her to death + miss her SO much! Cant wait! hehe Who else? Well I talked to Fed on the phone really late on Friday. I love him to death + Im so happy he likes Kelli cuz shes my girl + I love her + it helps Kelli to branch out more, which is what Im hoping for the rest of our Y to do. We're workin on it. But I love my Federico (hehe sorry hunny)... eh I mean my Fed + hes great as usual. Ive also been talkin to Miss Laura lately, the cool BX lady haha. She helps me out w/shit + she always keeps me hopeful, which I love since shes so wise + all-knowing about things. Thanks Laura, if you read this. You always keep my head up. I talked to Marcus on the phone the night of the Y Dance + I miss him to death + he said he misses me too. I hope he does. God I LOVE those boys. I truly never wanna be away from them, even though I always am. Hmm... Anyone else? Well I talked to Chris + tried to work things out. Im not sure if that worked but Im REALLY scared for him + I just want him to be ok, if thats possible. Working things out will need to take a backseat before he gets his health back. Oh God I hope he gets better. :'( Um... I also miss Ramon, Kevin x2, Melissa, Daniela, Michelle, Danielle, Phoebe, Nicole, Jimmy, Danny, Nelson, Lance, Bree, Sam, Mahoney, Chase, Nate, Sarah-Jean, Kim, MJ, Meghan, Amanda, Jay, Julie, Heather, Erica, Raven, Tekara, Katie, just..... everyone. I truly mean that too. If I didnt mention you then dont worry about it. But I miss you too. I just miss that Leaders aura that I love so much. Muah to you. Ok now anyone else? Well theres one person specifically that I didnt talk about, but Ill mention him in another section. + another person? Well I NEED to bitch someone out REALLY bad + just let it all out + drain myself of any + all of my feelings badly. Its needed + Im NOT gonna hold any shit back. I dont need to + I have ZERO sympathy. So it might hurt but its needed. Just a forewarning. Anything else? Its all pleasant. Shit I still need to get my Rally hat. Mental note... Even though Ill probably forget it in like 5 minutes. Yup this sections done. Moving on...
After-work story: Well as I mentioned earlier I had an after-work story, so here it is. It was heavily snowing when I finished work around 10pm. I was trying to make plans to go out for ice cream w/Dan + Ricky or just somethin like that. Well, my parents showed up + I told em to leave cuz Id get a ride from Ricky since I was pretty sure we were doing something. So they left + then those plans w/Dan + Ricky didnt happen. So I asked Craig if he could bring me home, but he couldnt cuz his parents wanted him at home cuz of the snow. So I was thinkin of people at work + I knew Juan had the car. Despite that he lives in Central Falls, I begged him + he agreed to take me home. So we planned to stop for ice cream but both Friendlys were closed. So we were driving along the narrow + very plowed Lindsey St. + Juan was going a lil too fast + we went around a curve. Well we didnt actually go around the curve + we just went straight + rode into snow... Not a snow bank really, just snow. It wasnt really in anyones yard (thank God), just off to the side of the road. So Juan tried to back out but we were stuck. So we tried digging ourselves out with our hands, but that didnt work. So then this guy driving a plow stops to help us + he gives Juan a shovel. So we keep tryin + that doesnt work. Then Juan starts the car + presses the gas, but none of the wheels moved + we heard something wrong w/the transmission. Ok so we're fucked + we're not gettin home in this car. So I called my mom + she came to pick us up. We drove to my house (like 3 mins away) + called AAA to tow the car. So we waited about an hour + then drove back to where the car was + the tow truck was there. So this tow truck guys was a MAJOR asshole. So he told my mom that the kind of truck he brought wasnt suitable to tow the car all the way to Central Falls (like 10 miles). So he towed it to my house + we left it in front of my house + me + my dad drove Juan home. So Sunday while Juan was at work, his mom + stepdad came over to talk about the incident + to give us their info (address, phone #, etc) so that the car could be towed there. So another tow truck guy came (MUCH nicer guy) w/the same kind of tow truck. Apparently that type of truck couldve been used the night before to bring it to CF, but the dude was an asshole. So as far as I know, Juans moms car (yes sadly it was his MOMS car that got ruined... yes it sucks) got safely to CF. Woohoo :-\. Ohh + btw... The car supposedly had something wrong w/the transmission before Juan even drove it that night. Heh + I told Juan Id pay for at least ½ the damage since he was bringing me home. Ooohh thats gonna be fun. Ugh :-\ But Im a good friend + will do it. So theres a story. Applause applause. Continuing...
Guys: Ahh... the always-interesting topic of men. Well well. In my life? Id say 2. 1 of them is in this area + hes a great guy... Really nice + sweet. Unfortunately hes not all that reliable + Im not sure if hes too bright either. Ill update you more when I find out lol. The 2nd guy (not that he is 2nd to the 1st or anything... Merely a random order) has that certain something. Hes hott, tall, smart, funny, athletic, charming, nice, motivated + that all-around amazing guy. I mean I never thought in the beginning of knowing him + I thought he was just this big player who talked sweet + I thought he was really ghetto too. Well thats not at all the case + Im glad that I got to know the real him. I can sit there + talk to him for hours + never get bored. + what makes him special is that he has this certain spark to him that makes me SO happy when I see him. I feel like even if I didnt see him for 3 years + then finally saw him, things would still feel + be the same. It amazes me + even though he lives 4½ hours away in NYC, it doesnt matter to me. I almost gave up hope, but Laura kept me hopeful. I need to understand that hes getting his priorities straight, but I need to remain patient + loyal thru it. I can do that for him. I think about him tons + I really really miss him. I hope I can see him soon. Miss you sillyduck <3. Thats all for that...
Upcoming News: Tomorrow, well, later today, at 9:30am I have an ultra-sound for my gall bladder. Since they found nothing wrong w/my blood, theyre guessing that my gall bladder is the problem. I truly hope they find something cuz I really wanna know whats wrong w/me. :-( Thursday? Nothing. Friday? Hopefully plans w/Steward + Juan. Saturday? Work from 3:45-9pm, then hopefully I can FINALLY have that sleepover w/Kelli. I miss her. Sunday? Work from 9:45-4 I think. Then probably homework afterwards... Or maybe Ill chill w/Eric. Monday? Back to school hopefully (well not really hopefully, but it beats sleeping in till 2pm, laying on my couch, watching 10 hours of TV + filling myself w/sugary cereal... oh wait. No it doesnt lol). Any other plans? Not that I can think of...
Random Shit I Missed: Lets see... I took the SATs on Saturday. Yup the first version of the new SATs. I think I did fine, except for not finishing my essay. How the fuck do they expect me to write a good essay about "majority rules" in a matter of 25 minutes. Thats merely testing my ability to think quickly, not my writing skills. Well theres an F-- for thinking quickly. I only got ½ way done. Meh I dont really care. Theres other opportunities to do it again. The math parts were eeeeeeasy, or so I thought. I hate English in general + I just skipped all the vocab + reading comprehension questions that I didnt know. The grammar corrections + shit? Well Im usually good at that so thats fine. Overall: Missy, job well done for about 1½ hours of sleep, a small Gatorade + a mint to have beforehand, + 4 hours of testing. Im proud of me lol. On either Sunday or Monday, there was a ton of articles about the SAT. They all said basically what I said... That it was too rushed or some shit like that. Idk, but I agreed w/em for the most part. Any other random shit? Happy Belated 18th Birthday to Colleen. Im happy for your porn, your cherries tattoo, + just you in general lol. I owe you a birthday present, which you will get the next time I see you hopefully. + you owe me Ramen soup... I like chicken haha. K... anything else? Oh ya, I REALLY need my license. Despite that my sis's "indigo" Neon is a piece of shit, its something. + its disappointing to watch people 6 months younger than me (like Kelli) drive + me not drive. Id have a much busier life if I had my license. Mental note: Get your fuckin license, you lazy ass. *sigh* Im so lazy. Damn... K Im done...
Closing: K Im scared to get caught by my dad since, yes of course, I "sneaked" on the computer once again. + its 4:02 am as I type + I guess I kinda want sleep. I promised my mom Id do homework... Maybe I actually will. + maybe Ill attempt to set up 1 of those pages for webshots. If I do then look for the link in my profile or here. Ok Im all set. I believe this entry was long enough lol. So to yall, good night... Or good morning haha. Lata kids! (:*-
love always,
~*Missy*~
ps... reminders:
1. Any North Attleboro High School Junior Male who doesnt have a date to the Jr. Prom... Missy/Melissa Edwards is available. Interested? Email me at Luky8missy@aol.com, IM me at SweetChick013088, comment on this entry, or call/text me at 508-695-4320. Yes... This is how desperate I am. Hope to hear from you!
2. For those bands that wish to do this, put on your calendars... Saturday, May 21st from 12-5pm at Mason Field in North Attleboro (The date + time is shaky but thats what we're looking at). There will be a Battle of the Bands for anyone interested in signing up. If you would like to, you need a demo tape by about March 29th. It must be appropriate (aka NO PROFANITY! lol) + it should be near ½ hour long. My Leaders Club advisor will lsiten to the tapes + pick 7-8 bands to be in the competition. Prize = $100-$200 (not decided yet) to split among your band. If you are interested, email me at Luky8missy@aol.com or IM me at SweetChick013088. Good luck to those who enter!
closing thought/song...
"You just call out my name, And you know wherever I am... I'll come running to see you again. Winter, spring, summer or fall... All you've to do is call. And I'll be there, yeah... You've got a friend." -James Taylor. ~love you Erin Nickerson. (:*