Hello old friend
It has been awhile. I never realize how much I miss writing until I truly need it.
So I have done well in my new environment. Most days I love my job, though its time for me to get back to school and move up. Living with my grandma has its moments, most are awesome though.
I truly miss my parents. I do wish some days I could move back, but I know there is nothing there for me. My dad has been drinking to the point of no return. While home for Christmas, we had to take him to the hospital it was so bad. He got better for a few days and then not so much and it seems he wants to drink himself to death or something. And I really have no one to talk to it about. Its hard on my Mom and Brother. My grandma (his mom) and aunt here really have their heads in the sand. And I really don't want to burden my friends with it, they have their own lives and worries.
My Brother had called dad one day wanting a ride home from work. And dad being the "provider" he is said yes even though he was drunk. On his way to get my Brother he hit a mailbox. Then went back home and never let my Brother know that he was not coming.
And what worries me the most is moms not telling me everything. She would not want to worry me with this. But the truth is I can't stop worrying. It's ingrained in me, I don't know any other way to think. I love my dad so much, I really don't know what to do, and if I lose him, I'm going to lost to the world, he's my rock.
Later days
So I have done well in my new environment. Most days I love my job, though its time for me to get back to school and move up. Living with my grandma has its moments, most are awesome though.
I truly miss my parents. I do wish some days I could move back, but I know there is nothing there for me. My dad has been drinking to the point of no return. While home for Christmas, we had to take him to the hospital it was so bad. He got better for a few days and then not so much and it seems he wants to drink himself to death or something. And I really have no one to talk to it about. Its hard on my Mom and Brother. My grandma (his mom) and aunt here really have their heads in the sand. And I really don't want to burden my friends with it, they have their own lives and worries.
My Brother had called dad one day wanting a ride home from work. And dad being the "provider" he is said yes even though he was drunk. On his way to get my Brother he hit a mailbox. Then went back home and never let my Brother know that he was not coming.
And what worries me the most is moms not telling me everything. She would not want to worry me with this. But the truth is I can't stop worrying. It's ingrained in me, I don't know any other way to think. I love my dad so much, I really don't know what to do, and if I lose him, I'm going to lost to the world, he's my rock.
Later days