I'm upset
SoOo what's the point of having a BEST FRIEND when she DOESNT tell you things like she used to or talk to me or call me or message me anymore?? Or what's the point in having a BEST FRIEND when I feel like I CANT talk to her about anything that's going on in my life cuz I feel like she's either gonna twist my words around and make what I'm saying turn into something about her and her bf or she just doesn't seem like she's really paying attention to me?? No wonder why I STILL wanna move outta this fuckin state! I just have too many damn "friends" that say they'll be there for me when I need someone to talk to, but they just aren't. Well, except for Beckiee. I KNOW that NO MATTER what, she's there for me! I know that she IS one of my best friends. At least SHE can hold up to that title!!
I just found out something about my other best friend from SOMEONE ELSE. Maybe she thinks it's not "important" for me to know this about her. Or maybe she's "not" ready to tell me just like she's not "ready" to talk to me about things going on in her life right now. I don't know. I'm really hurt right now by this. I've BEEN feeling hurt by her just cuz she acts like I'm INVISIBLE now. Whatever I guess. When she needs me, I wont be there :(
Now I'm even MORE depressed about the WANTING A BABY thing...
I just found out something about my other best friend from SOMEONE ELSE. Maybe she thinks it's not "important" for me to know this about her. Or maybe she's "not" ready to tell me just like she's not "ready" to talk to me about things going on in her life right now. I don't know. I'm really hurt right now by this. I've BEEN feeling hurt by her just cuz she acts like I'm INVISIBLE now. Whatever I guess. When she needs me, I wont be there :(
Now I'm even MORE depressed about the WANTING A BABY thing...